name : tiffany
faith : christian.
nationality : cbc.
status : <3
living in : toronto.
school / major : UT / pharmacy
.: my stats, as of 11/05/06 :.
mood : tired.
likes : my friends. bunnies fronting as pillows. keeners.
dislikes : exams. lack of sleep. keeners.
wishlist : "connections".
current distractions : dexter, top model, heroes.
wondering : hmmm, is it too late for me re-learn study habits?
Sunday, December 28, 2003
special guest blogger: BENITA!!!!
hallooooooooooooo... im at tiffy's place.. yesssss. ne hooo we're gona go shopping tomoro. and we're ALL gona fit in the car, i dunno how. but hoepfully.. crossfingers. n e hoo so good to see her again. yay! kehe.. this rogers hispeed is great! i can just sit here and like sit here! wut are we gona do? ne suggestions? ne hoo .. who talks to tiff? on blogger? answer now. and then we shall see tiff's list of friends. kehe.. brb
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I PASSED ORGO!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as you can tell, i'm very happy! :) i was so sure that i'd fail the exam... you know what with the whole forgetting to answer TWO WHOLE PAGES on the final!!!! BUT I PASSED!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!
talkin' with liz right now... have the urge to watch my sassy girl again... such a great movie!
"my love must be some kind of blind love... i can't see anyone but you... sha bop sha bop... i only have eyes for you..."
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Saturday, December 27, 2003
kal & co. left just now. they brought wings <3 (though i'm not too sure that they're too good for me, but meh! i've been craving them!) afterwards, they proceeded to (what else?) play street fighter while i sought the solitude of music and msn. had a bit of a headache and wanted to lie down - i think i was getting a little snippish, but it annoys me when things that i care about are made fun of. i always was a sensitive/defensive one! well, it was either that or i was delirious. either way, i probably wasn't the most fun to hang out with. :( but thanks for dropping by, guys. it WAS nice for a little bit of company. :)
i want more people to come and visit!
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galdarnit!!!! this is the worst timing! i wanted to go to nat's soiree tonight, but i'm still not feeling quite on top of things yet!!! booo! and i wanted to see everybody too.... :(
well, hopefully i'll get to meet up with them still? it was really nice to get calls from nat and felix though. :)
meanwhile, haven't seen erin and liz and them for a long time... they're going to joe's tommorrow... hopefully i can make it?
anyway, kal, felix and ed just dropped by... i must go now. see you all later!
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Friday, December 26, 2003 blech... tiffany is a little ache-y... : ( must hurry up and recuperate so i can meet up with the million people i promised (and want) to meet up with!
so these past few days (sickness notwithstanding) have been absolutely great!
on tuesday, slept over at benita's after the formal thingy... was SO much fun! well, it's always fun dressing up and looking pretty, but i also got to hang out with ming again - so good seeing him! plus, if anything, it was sooooo HILARIOUS watching benita... ming agrees with me! "you know, i wish i had gotten that guy's contact!" "your fish are going nuts!!!" "can you scratch your name off the list?" hahaha, benita, my best, i'm going to be watching you VERY closely come tracy/toby/harold's weddings!
the next day, did a little bit of shopping with my brother and watched select parts of the two towers with him while wrapping presents.
christmas day was really great as well, if not better. normally we open our presents first thing in the morning (if not after we come back from christmas eve service), but since our mom's present wasn't dry yet, jon and i had to delay until night time... in the meantime, mei <3 came over for a few hours to hang out at our place, and gladys did too. we had one of our old family services, where we sang a little and jon and my dad shared a little devo/message. it was really good.
then in the evening, we had christmas "hot pot" at my grandma's with my extended family and jon's roommate, alan. i agree with jon, i love our family. we are so lucky to live just a few houses down from our relatives and, man, kirby is just too funny! hahaha, i think he really took a shine to alan! (sit over here! i'm on your team!) anyway, the food was great, the company was better, and we watched X2 after dinner and cake.
when we got home, jon and i had to quickly finish off my mom's gift - which was what i was most excited about... since they newly renovated the upstairs washroom, my mom wanted matching accessories and pictures to put up in there. so after futilely looking for some appropriate black-and-white art, i decided to dig up some old photos of jon and me when we were babies, scan and turn them black-and-white and then frame them! honestly, the picture of my brother is so adorable! i can't stop looking at it! but yeah, my parents were so excited and they loved the pics, so now i'm really happy! you guys HAVE to come over to my house now just so you can stare at my bathroom! hahaha. oh, and jon really liked his gift too (thanks ebru!), i gave him turkish tea cups and saucers, cay (tea), and some sour cherry jam.
and what did i get for christmas? some money, a purse, and randomly this HUGE 1kg package of cheese puffs (!?!?!) from kirby! oh, and MY BROTHER AND PARENTS GAVE ME A DIGITAL CAMERA!!!!!! :D two thumbs up! i'm gonna be having fun with my new little toy!
today, slept in and woke up with a cough and stingy eyes... but did a little bit of shopping at dixie. picked up a sweater/jacket thingy and a $5 shirt from jacob. ooh! and bought the first four seasons of buffy on dvd for an astounding $150!!! one individual season normally costs around $70, so this was a good deal. still quite a bit of a splurge for me (since i'm such a cheapskate), but i'm quite pleased... have been eyeing them for quite a while now.
anyhow, so what were my most memorable moments of this christmas vacation so far? well, besides watching benita bump into things, i think it as spending time with my family. watching alan interact with my cousins and family service was really great, and the look on my parents' face was absolutely worth the late-night "perfect picture" searchings. and best of all, i got to spend a lot of quality time with jonathan. going shopping together, wrapping presents, watching movies, talking in the car (and teasing our parents :p), was probably one of the things i will treasure most about this 2003 christmas season. i don't know, i really look up to him (haha, maybe it's b/c he gives the impression that he's always right! :p) and his opinions really do mean a lot to me. plus, he's quite such a great, sly sense of humour! you wouldn't really think it b/c he sometimes comes off as really serious, but jon's really funny! i think it's from growing up as a shui... you'd know if you met my dad! :) anyway, i am so blessed to have such a wonderful family, and i really do hope that in the coming years, i'll get to really know and be closer to them. <3
ok, i just got a chill and my eyes still hurt... methinks i'm going to lie down now... ok guys, take the care! feel free to call me ANYTIME if you want to meet up this holiday season, ok? and don't forget to SET A DATE or else we probably won't end up meeting! alright, stay safe, healthy, and happy!
for all you urbana-ites : safe journey! may God teach you so much that your head explodes (but in a good way!!) and don't forget to tell me all about it! oooh! and bundle up!
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Monday, December 22, 2003
went shopping with ebru for jon's present... just have to buy one or two more parts for his present to be done... and i have to buy everybody else's... ugh. tommorrow is going to be pretty hectic... :(
it was really great spending time with eebs again... we shopped for a little bit and then headed back to my house where we caught up on a lot of stuff. am probably going to see her (and other people!) on saturday at nat's. yay!
am talking with benita right now - gonna go see her tommorrow at the semi-formal thingy!
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suz, you going to urbana? my brother's going!
talking with justin right now... :) i miss him!
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Sunday, December 21, 2003
argh. i hate christmas shopping... i have no idea what to get people, and this year, i have even less time to figure it all out! boo!
these past few days i've been taking it easy... friday night, met up with the girls and watched down with love, which was quite amusing. oh! and also caught half of freaky friday... hahahaha... it was creeptastic! (well, the "tristan" thing, anyway) saturday, i spent it with my mom and dad doing some shopping here and there... unfortunately, didn't get too much done... in the evening, went out to dinner with the family, and got to spend some time with jon. it was a fairly unharried day. today, went to church, joined the uni fellowship party for lunch, and then shopped a bit. it was really good seeing all my friends at cpc again... hrm, and brandon told me something pertaining to this morning just now.... interesting. anyway, there were a few minute moments of "weirdness" (just in my head though!), but otherwise things were good.
anyway, am debating whether or not to go to liz's thing... it's not that i don't want to go, i DO want to, but my parents aren't home and i'm wondering if tonight's one of those nights where they'll let me stay out 'til 2 or 3 in the morning... especially if i don't ask them... hrm.
oh, it's nice being on msn after cutting myself off this past week... i'm not really talking, unless i'm chatting with 4 people at the same time! ;p
p.s. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO BUY FOR PEOPLE IN THIS NEXT THREE DAYS?!?!?!?!
p.p.s. you know what i really want for christmas? or pretty much anytime? a nice heartfelt letter.
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Friday, December 19, 2003
okie, am back in toronto now!!!
sat with jess on bus today... we chatted for a bit and watched ferris bueller... i love that movie... then bused back to kipling from scarberia with ketan and imran... and it's good to be home now! we have even more gadgets! yay! my daddy bought a nice new scanner/printer/copier for my mom for their anniversary (b/c she's learning how to be more computer literate)... it's all pretty sweet... now all we need is a digital camera and i'll be pretty happy... :)
anyway, it's nice to be back home and see family and "practically family" (uncle fred and aunty irene are over). i'm SO looking forward to a nice 9 hour and 15 minute slumber tonight because i haven't yet had a full night's sleep since i finished exams - though i'm not complaining, b/c i enjoyed my not-sleeping hours thoroughly. but it's always nice to look less zombie-like! :p and then tommorrow, i think we're having dinner with uncle fred, and i also have to do MAMMOTH amounts of shopping! who wants to keep me company??
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quick blog on ketan's comp:
so, the "sleepover" was pretty fun... imran came back from stages later on, and then danielle came over for the night as well... had some really interesting conversations, i'll tell you that... that's what i like hanging around them, the intelligent conversation (often), even if we are talking about the social hierarchy of bonobos monkey societies... or female pheramones... ... or gossiping about people (who i've never met before in my life!) haha, good times... it's weird, sometimes i find it a little intimidating in these conversations just because i'm not that smart... or atleast i don't think in the same way they do, which leads to me usually just sitting there listening to them talk because i don't have anything really enlightening to say. but it's ok, b/c i like to sit there and just absorb their ideas and opinions... it's very interesting to hear others' viewpoints. it's also kinda interesting to me to hear their drinking and/or "other" stories... b/c in my nice little sheltered bubble (which i really do love, btw), it's all so foreign to me. haha, tiffany isn't really "street smart", so it's nice to be "educated" and live vicariously through other people! b/c yeah, to me? never happening.
we were up so late too! i mean, ketan and i got back from my place at around midnight, and then danielle and imran didn't come over 'til an hour or two later... stayed up 'til past 6:30am talking in ketan's room! anyway, it was all really fun. am kinda tired now, but had a nice nap in imran's bed, so am feeling ok. anyhow, am heading to toronto in about an hour, so am very excited! can't wait to get back!!!
oh, and what do i like to read? well, for starters, i LOVE c.s. lewis and the chronicles of narnia... i think that man is a genius! i wrote an essay a few years back about the religious allegory found the in the chronicles of narnia and it was SO much fun to write and research! they're SO good! and i read tolkien's stuff a few years back too. good story, but personally found his writing style a little pedantic... so yeah, i enjoy the fantasy genre, i suppose... i've always loved fairy tales as a child, and i still do! or maybe i just like children's literature? oh, and i love books by bill bryson... he's a hilarious travel writer - i never thought that the travel genre of writing would be interesting at all, but this guy is SO funny. ohmygoodness... you HAVE to read "in a sunburnt country", it is one of my favourites and it's about australia!!!! it's not really a travel book, but it kinda is? just read it, ok?
oh, i like to read a lot of other things/genres too... trying to read some more "classics", but am way behind on my reading list... am generally not one of those who reads the popular stuff on the best-sellers lists though. anyway, in conclusion, reading is fun.
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hey folks!!! how is everybody doing? hopefully well!!!
good day today... had to head to campus to buy hasib a bus ticket and since i was by the jduc, i thought i'd swing by imran and ketan's to play! they convinced me to stay over at their place tonight since we had to take the bus together tommorrow and b/c they live so close to campus.
watched magnolia with ketan in the afternoon... good movie... a little hard to follow at times... and COMPLETELY RANDOM at others! i'd say that that one event at the end was one of the biggest plot twists in any movie ever. but yeah, it was still really well-done. "ma'am, please don't drag the couch!" after the movie, ketan and i headed back to my place and we just kinda hung out, cooked/"baked", and packed a bit. walked back to ketan's and then just hung around his room, looking up random things on encyclopedias and learning the science behind bongs... sigh. i don't condone the illicit part, though i must say that the scientific concepts behind them are very interesting... but still, i disapprove! hahaha, science is fun! submarines are cool! :)
yeah, so right now, listening/talking with ketan who's talking on the phone with danielle right now... good times, good times... have finally found out the secret of ketan's brilliancy! ;p
ok, well, gonna be in toronto soon! drop me a line!
Thursday, December 18, 2003
ahhhhh... sweet, sweet, freedom...
not sure how i did on the last exam, but you know what? i really didn't care... during the last 30 minutes of the exam, i still had some questions that i hadn't answered yet (and was capable of answering), but i just didn't want to do it! i just wanted to get out of jocky harty and be free!!!! don't worry, i did opt to stay and finish the exam off... i figure that in the long run, it would probably be helpful to, you know, pass the exam! hahaha :p
but honestly, was SO giddy after psych... was screaming and bouncing up and down and off the walls! (the others can attest to that...) okay, so yesterday after the exam, took a nice long shower to wash off the stink of school from my soul (so nice... purging... and kiwi-scented!), then headed over to vicky's for the potluck dinner... good times! renzo was there! i don't see him often enough... that crazy peruvian, he tells the best stories EVER. ("make sure you take care of your butt!" ~ grandma) ahahaha. then afterwards we saw LOTR!!!!!!! :)
so... don't really feel like giving a synopsis or review of the movie (i'm sure all of you are going to see it anyway!), but i really liked it. truth be told though, i can't quite say right now if i like this one better than the second one... this one is the better movie, for sure, but i think i need more time to let it all sink in. and watch in again with erin once i get back totoronto! but yeah, it was a good movie... go see it and form your own opinions!!! though i suspect that if you're not into the whole fantasy genre or haven't read the books, that you might find the movie a tad long. (haha, vic?) or if you read the trilogy, you might find some fault in the changes peter jackson made in the movie, but i still maintain that it was a damn good adaptation even with the changes - i mean, you gotta look at the whole package, not get stuck up on semantics! the acting was a lot stronger in this movie, i found, than the others... i mean, i knew how the movie/book ended, but there were so many scenes where i felt full of sadness just from the sheer hopelessness of the situation... like that part when pippin was singing... oh man... (hahaha, you know those personality quizzes where they ask if you ever empathize with television characters? yeah, that is SO me!)
after the movie, xin drove grace and i home. was pretty dead tired because the movie was so long and also on account of me getting only 2? 3? hours of sleep the night before so i could study.... however, i stayed up another hour or so to watch some smallville that i had downloaded (out of pure spite towards my exams)!
then i went to sleep and woke up "early"-ish, so i could see grace before she left for toronto... now it's just me... sniff sniff... but s'ok, marco's still going to be around (yay!) and ketan and imran are here too (woot!)... and apparently keith is still around but he's doing some sort of math thingy for a prof? apparently...
anyhowz, gonna go now and grab some lunch, do some errands, and have a little bit o' fun! i'll see you all when i get back to the 'coke!!!!
oh hey - tina, suz, and anyone else... was talking with simon (<3) and he was suggesting that we meet up sometime this holiday season post-christmas... whaddayasay? you guys in?
also, we used to get free planners from the school (well, we did last year), but it seems that queen's is too cheap to give us free stuff this year! grrr.
actually, i just remembered one complaint i had about the movie: not enough legolas-gimli banter... actually, not enough legolas, for that matter... ;p
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Monday, December 15, 2003
just a few "short" notes:
> does anybody actually read the stuff i write on the side panels? or is there no point in updating that stuff? (no matter, it's my replacement pseudo-planner... if anyone has a friend in middle/high school who doesn't use a planner, hook me up, yo!)
> so i saw my pics page got hit up again... i wonder who visited?
> speaking of which, i'll post up some more pics once keith finally sends me his pics... they'll be from september, but still better than nothing, right?
> ok, so i need some suggestions of what i should do next school year... should i stay at queen's? go to UT? somewhere else completely? where should i apply? (where will i get in???) no matter what, i gotta get out of this program (bio... that's right, not lifesci, never was lifesci... though in retrospect, i would've enjoyed it way more) can't stand another year of this, but not adverse to the idea of staying here for a different program (like OT?) plus, i got this sweet-ass apartment that i don't want to give up! :p (strange odours and all... hahaha)
> on a related topic, thanks so much for the email, tina! i'll write you back once these damned exams are over...
> i need christmas present suggestions, people! HELP! (plus time to go shopping too... please don't be offended if you get a late gift - let's be reasonable, i haven't even finished exams yet!)
> BOOKED! (for you, bunmui! :p )
> ok, maybe not so short... well, short for me, but you all know how much i like to ramble... (most notably noted by kalam and erin) ;p
> hey, so why do you guys still stick around? b/c these entries are always so devoid of actual coherant thoughts, ideas, or discussions, that they really can't be all that interesting, i figure. but it does give you the full flavour of tiffany! ;) i suppose i mustn't discount that! hopefully i've got some gift of prose?
> i fear my english skills are slowly diminishing... my vocabulary (like, whatever, yo.) and writings style (fragmented. incoherant.) are severely lacking, and i'm too found of elipses and parentheses. and too many david-isms... damn you! can't get these idiotic phrases out of my head! (whoa whoa whoa) well, atleast i stopped talking like hasib last year...? and i've still got my spelling... :) bah, i blame this all on the instant messaging medium! (i can no longer type with capitals anymore! but have not succumbed to using "lol" yet.)
okie, pharm down... just psych to go now... SO DEAD! must study study study... UGH. this school thing never ends... (for me atleast, stupid everybody else being done like two weeks ago! grr.)
but atleast i'm going home at the end of the week! :) can't wait to see all of you again! so who wants to do what? i pretty much have two free weeks, so i'm totally open for suggestions. i'd love to hang out with you guys!
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Saturday, December 13, 2003
nah, i still maintain that angel's a great show. and what else am i going to watch now that buffy's gone? (oh right, smallville and the o.c.... hahaha) but that numero cinco episode was hilarious! "surely you have heard about our victory over the devil's robot? ... el diablo robotico." haha, pure camp. plus, who can resist the power of masked mexican wrestling midgets?
ack. this sucks. i have no motivation to study. well, i do, but it's not really motivating me at the moment... all i want to do right now is eat a gigantic meal and then go to sleep... stupid cramps... SOMEBODY FEED ME!!!! i want FOOOOOOD!
note to self: exercise. and get more sleep. i have a feeling i'm going to be incredibly self-conscious when i get back home... especially on the 23rd. hm, maybe i should throw away my mirrors (yeah, like that'll ever happen!), b/c these past few weeks, everytime i look in one of those blasted devices, i've been getting progressively more and more dissatisfied with myself. bah, no wonder the boys aren't flocking towards me in droves... time to rely on the "sparkling wit"! :p
have a headache. want to sleep. but must study.
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the final test could come at any moment, which is why i find these little tests on the way so important... they build "character" (haha, sounding like calvin's dad now). i don't know, i just don't want to be found wanting...
i like morcheeba's video for 'otherwise'... haha, why study for pharm when i can watch music videos on launch?
oh, that and watch episodes of smallville and angel! :p
i miss tv... anybody have this season's episodes of angel, smallville, or the o.c.?
or where to find music with sia furler? she's got such a gorgeously unique voice.
two more exams... almost done... but still so far away... : (
anyhoo... back to "pharm"...
(you know, i really am too fond of these elipses... <-- haha, just like that!)
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Thursday, December 11, 2003
i have not the words... :(
must remember : i can do everything through Him who gives me strength. philippians 4:13. perspective : life is a test. everything for His purpose.
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it's three in the morning, i have an exam tommorrow, and i still have more things to memorize... so why am i smiling?
now this is more like it... absolutely ridiculous! :)
but prayers would still be nice for tonight at 7pm (orgo) and friday at 7pm (stats).
p.s. danny is the greatest poet ever.
<3
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Monday, December 08, 2003
but isn't harrassment better than no harrassment at all? right? right? hahaha
so, is everybody liking the little tgs sound clips every time you open this page? tgs rox! i hope another (t)issue comes out soon!
had an interesting dream this morning - didn't want to wake up... i think my id is trying to tell me something. sadly though, this is one dream that definitely won't come true... completely plausible, but not realistic.
well, am still studying for the dreaded orgo exam on thursday evening... then have stats final on friday evening (but not to worry, prof. molson says the exam location's going to be at stages... i can just see it now: tiffany contemplating anova tables while a couple to her left is bumping and grinding... hahaha). then next week i've got pharm on monday and psych on wednesday... :( still so many to go...
and to all those done exams: "blast you! a pox on your chickens!" i'm SO loving all those "done my finals" msn nicknames... NOT!
mmmm... there's nothing like slightly burnt hello kitty-shaped chocolate chip cookies to take the edge off chem... :)
now if you'll excuse me, i have to go study like a fiend. hopin' everybody else's exams are going well! sorry to drop out of sight (especially on msn), but i really gotta study and i'm having a hard enough time focusing on lecture notes as it is! but don't worry, once these damn exams are over, i'll be back, ready to blog, message, and go out! haha, i can test out my new emoticons that i was downloading yesterday instead of studying...
let's bake!
p.s. hey tina, don't worry about the email, just make sure you focus on exams first, ok? but thanks for taking the time to write me! i hope we all get to meet up soon-ish!
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Saturday, December 06, 2003
SO GOOD!!! hahaha
(wah! i can't focus! studying sucks!)
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so, as you guys may have noticed from my msn name, I HATE PLANTS!!! especially sphenophytes!!! damn horsetails... who cares what a sporangiophore is?!?!?! sigh... yes, my prof chose the most OBSCURE terms to test us on... and mind you, this was a written, not multiple choice exam!
and oh. my. goodness. i had "sensitive to bees" stuck in my head these past two exams! i mean, it's a funny song, but...
afterwards, gracie and i did a little bit of shopping to "ease our perturbed souls"... saw some really gorgeous shoes... if only they weren't $120 and also unnecessary...
b/c we didn't feel like cooking either, we decided to head to the epicure for dinner. so good! fridays are always 2 for 1 dinner nights, and the food (haha, when they actually have it!) is really good! we both had the half-chicken with potato wedges and salad... mmmmm.... i pretty much bummed around for the rest of the night - oh! i got a phone call from jenne! (a deferred super-thursday call) we talked for a quite a while, with me talking copious amounts about myself (as per usual!). hahaha, but that's not why i always look forward to our weekly calls!
oh jeanie... how did you know those boys were my dream come true? prime. marriage. material. ahahahahaha!
and ben, thanks for always looking out for me! *muah*
okay guys, going to have some lunch now and then study... good luck on your exams and/or essays!!!!
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Thursday, December 04, 2003
i know i should be studying, but i just got an email from allison sending me this, so i couldn't help posting it!
but this is a NEW one! not as good as the original, but still pretty funny:
they're all "growed" up!
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Wednesday, December 03, 2003
short message today. beginning to worry b/c my exams start tommorrow... probably won't go online either.
honestly guys, i think i have the attention span of a baby chimpanzee... i can't focus! i'm too easily distracted! this studying thing is so NOT working out... and yet, i need to do it b/c i need good grades (and i've slept through far too many early classes to just breeze through the exams...)
but weighing on my mind:
"two roads diverged..." which one will i say i took? where am i going to be next year? queen's still? or will i be in toronto? heck, maybe even guelph, my original first choice. who knows why i'm at queen's, i certainly don't. only He knows... maybe i'll find out why in a few years? who can fathom His purposes? i personally chose it on a last-minute whim... i was seduced by its venerable name... hahaha. but now i've got to figure out what i really want to do. what program or field do i really want to pursue? what is my passion? this going-out-on-a-limb thing is going to be scary... i've always hated uncertainties, and me pursuing all these other possibilities are definitely not "sure things"... firstly b/c i don't know if i can even get in, secondly b/c i don't know if i'll enjoy it. i've always made such deliberate choices in my life with already known results, it's going to be hard for me to take these other steps towards the unknown. never have i realised more that, just b/c you try for something doesn't mean you're going to get it... but hey, it's my future! sometimes you gotta take those risks... i'm just scared that i won't be up for the challenge - i've always been such a 'fraidy cat... :p
i see a bend coming up in the road... what's beyond it?
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"weirded out!"
oh man, tgs...
and no, "nelson" and all those other boys won't be forgotten, grace! (the resemblance is uncanny!) i'm not sure if i'm going to agree with your marriage plans for me though...
so... holy crypticness batman! i can only assume that it's just randomness and totally unrelated to me. slowly getting "balmier and balmier"... (i miss my narnia books... :( )
man, this sleep-deprivation does wacky things... having way too much fun with gracie!
and nice finally "meeting" you, alex. good luck on your interview!
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Tuesday, December 02, 2003
goodness... who knew that one entry could cause so much trouble? perhaps it was better when not so many people knew about this page? it gave me more room for freedom - to say what's really on my mind. honestly people, i'll give you a little primer for how this blog thing works for me:
> when i want to recount my day, i write in it.
> when i have a funny story to tell, i write in it.
> if i want to leave a message for someone, i write in it.
> if i'm upset for even A LITTLE BIT, i write in it, thus giving me therapy for the price of sympatico internet. afterwards, i'm content once more. end of story. please stop making mountains out of molehills.
anyway, if you people choose to misinterpret, that's your problem... (well, technically it's mine b/c i'll have to eventually deal with the fallout, but pssh, who cares about foresight, anyway? :p haha)
but if i've offended any of you, i'm deeply apologetic. i don't believe i've written anything really mean or untruthful about anything or anybody, but if something here bothers you, let me know, ok? and for the sake of anonymity, to bubba's friend: i hope i'm correct in assuming that we're still friends? b/c i still think you're a really nice person and a great ally in shaving en's legs and keeping bubba's ego in check! :)
oy. now onto other business.... I'M GOING TO FAIL!!!!!!!!!!! this brain of mine... not absorbing information... and what i do know keeps leaking out... {sob} need prayers for my genetics and botany midterms/finals this thursday and friday... hope all of yours have been going well.
ok, so that quiz below really IS the BEST ONE EVER! haha, i tried finding the other options, and they were dna, mrna, lipids, starch, and enzymes... it's all so nerdy and funny all at the same time... and it saddens me that i find this funny b/c yesterday i spend 5 hours studying those very molecules... boo! but much <3 out to my fellow glucose, liz! so how 'bout the rest of you? what biological molecule are you?
oh, and alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex alex. (is that enough ego-boosting for you there?) :p
downloaded the strong bad cd!!!
so... according to my parents, i should looking for a 25 year old med student... haha. which brings me to a topic that grace and i were just discussing... how big of an age difference is ok before the "ick" factor comes up? i think that there's a general consensus that it's majorly creepy for someone in high school to be dating someone more than a few years older, though. what was that equation again? take your age, halve it and add 7... that's the youngest you can go? still seems rather icky. i don't know... five years is still a big difference to me (i mean, jon's only four years older) and i'll be honest, i'm just not mature enough, despite my parents' "hopes"! hahaha, my parents are too funny. you see, they jest, but i can tell that deep down there's a note of seriousness... just like that chinese engineers at waterloo thing... hahahahaha!
oh poor, crazy, miss havisham...
ok, well back to bio and orgo... later, folks.
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You are glucose. People feed off of you. You are sweet, caring, and a source of energy for everyone around you. You can inspire others with your creativity and depth, and you can keep people alive when in times of famine. People love you...or at least the way you taste.
and now back to studying...
posted @ 12:22:00 p.m.
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ju!!! how are you doing? i haven't seen you in ages! we have to get together during the holidays, ok?
so, just got back from chernoff ten minutes ago... man, i went into the building at 7:30pm with no snow in sight and when i left, it was one in the morning and the entire ground is covered with snow (with people running around throwing snowballs... "haha, you just fell!")
has been a bio-ful day. tommorrow will continue to be so. as will the day after. and the day after that.
oh, and alex, was referring to pilate the band but OH MY GOODNESS! i'm SUCH a infomercial junkie! no, i haven't ordered anything from the tv yet, but man, i think i've memorized all the words to ron popeil's showtime rotisserie and bbq infomercial... not to mention the thunderstick, winsor pilates, nads (which i actually bought for my equally infomercially-obsessed best friend when i was in australia... she started hyperventilating when she saw it!), those crazy knives that "chef tony" sells, that crazy spinny hair brush, and so much more... haha, i made my parents watch one with me last year and they thought i was completely nuts b/c i could recite all the words... sigh. i have no life!
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Monday, December 01, 2003
no strong bad email, but new marzipan's answering machine! message #3: "... tofu's made of little baby seals... that's just gross." message #2: "that is garbage, sister!... looks like you're riding the 7:30 alone train to alonesville!" :) homestar is smart.
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ugh. had a headache this morning and afternoon (probably b/c i stayed up too late talking with danny). thank goodness for extra strength tylenol! am much better now!
oh, got this forward from ebru... too cute! i'll post some more when i have the time...
"when is it ok to kiss someone? > when they're rich. ~ pam, age 7
> the rule goes like this: if you kiss someone, then you should marry them and have kids with them. it's the right thing to do. ~ howard, age 8 how would the world be different if people didn't get married? > there sure would be a lot of kids to explain, wouldn't there? ~ kelvin, age 8 and my personal favourite:
"what would you do on a first date that was turning sour? > i'd run home and play dead. the next day i would call all the newspapers and make sure they wrote about me in all the dead columns. ~ craig, age 9
so things are going well... full of bio, but well. it's scary b/c i'm being quasi-productive! oh, and i've decided that i can blog, but for the majority of the day, i'm going to shut my computer down to take away the distraction.
and in reference to my (lack of) sanity, don't worry! i was just overreacting earlier, but i'm ok. really. :) it just seemed worse b/c i wrote about it at that moment... but there's more to my life!!! honest!!! (haha, like wonderful, darling school and the pursuit of higher education!!! {sob} )
sigh. i just keep forgetting to put things into Godly terms - this must be remedied. like pdl says, "it's not about me". oy. such an easy concept... but so hard to grasp!
(though it must be admitted that i'm really curious - which one of you told him? well, you can tell him i'm sorry, if you want.)
thanks again to danny for being such a sweetheart - it's good to have someone explain the intricacies of being a boy to me... you have no idea how lucky i am to know someone like you! but then, as my "bf" you're supposed to be there for me, aren't you? hahaha <3 (still waiting for the second "date", as long as it's not to the lcbo!) and thanks to alex for reminding me that (except for a select few) all boys are scum! :p and of course, to my best benita for just being such a darn cool chick! the 23rd is going to be so fun! (... despite my lack of rhythm and poise... please don't mistake my dancing for convulsions!)
anyhow, today was a good day made even better by good friends... and greasy bacon and eggs... (mmmm... breakfast foods...) and now i must go study some more... see y'all later... bye!
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danny, you're too good to me. sorry to keep you from studying! :)
thanks for listening. <3
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ok, so it's funny how even though i'm tired, i'm not really that sleepy... and yet, whenever i crack open a textbook, it's always "zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz"... funny how the world works, isn't it?
intrigued... by various people/things ;)
i found this weekend to be pretty uneventful. though i met duncan (my sole reason for coming home) who was really cool, so that was good. but otherwise, i didn't go out with friends like normal. had to put up the pretense of studying around my parents at home... ;) and even though i didn't go out with the guys, my dad somehow managed to bring up that i feels that i should "enlargen my friends" at church... are you sure my dad likes you, brandon? ;p
the bus ride back from toronto was pretty good. the bus was pretty empty so got an entire row to myself! and watched sweet home alabama. i "studied" too.
eagerly awaiting the new strong bad email! the quote up above was from homestar, btw... (not a quote from eric logan wrt to me... hahaha. ew.)
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different thoughts on my mind. exams. family. friends.
unrest in my heart. do you know the feeling? when your body reacts physically to what you're feeling. it just sits there on your chest, constricting, suffocating. a weight.
i want to believe you, but i just don't trust you. did i ever really completely? not at first, atleast. i used to frustrate you b/c i was always so skeptical, so disbelieving. you said all the right things, but maybe they sounded too good? or maybe it just wasn't what i wanted to hear. or not enough. self-delusions can never be discounted.
and why must i make everything such a big deal? and why do i make everything about me? i'm such a self-centered drama queen. i think i just blew my months' work of restraint that i had worked so hard at... argh!
f*ck. i didn't want to talk with you. ok, i did want to further resolve things (since it's apparent that they actually were'nt before) and plus i'm a girl so i always dredge up and discuss this stuff... but why does every freakin' conversation we have to be so serious? JEEZEBURGER! and holy talk about blindsiding me ness! you and danny both message me at the exact same time while i'm in the middle of elementary school giddiness with grace, catching me totally unawares. i mean, what i do best is speak jibberish, so why must i be forced to talk "grown up" all the time? i swear, give us both a good conversation about absolutely everything (and nothing), and things will be back to normal in no time.
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