name : tiffany
faith : christian.
nationality : cbc.
status : <3
living in : toronto.
school / major : UT / pharmacy
.: my stats, as of 11/05/06 :.
mood : tired.
likes : my friends. bunnies fronting as pillows. keeners.
dislikes : exams. lack of sleep. keeners.
wishlist : "connections".
current distractions : dexter, top model, heroes.
wondering : hmmm, is it too late for me re-learn study habits?
whymilk - Andy Roddick ok, grace and i are SO second grade... we spent a good ten minutes giggling over this unfortunate poster... see if you can guess why... (and no, maturity is not a virtue i possess... i'm such a loser!!!)
GOT MILK? ahahahaha!
and, oh man, this ym mag is so stupid... those boys are SO not "super delicious" as the cover claims... that boy is 14 years old!!!! EW! (btw, no i did NOT purchase this mag, it was free!)
ok, won't be around as much these days... going into "hibernation" with the upcoming exams... good luck on all of yours, dear friends!
oh crap. consequences... that's it, no more honesty for tiffany. next time, think before you "speak", girl.
bah, jon won't buy me a digital camera since i dropped my camera (instead of him breaking mine in turkey)... man! and i'm pretty sure i just made that one crack, not the other! it still worked! :p
p.s. i think i did download some pilate a few months ago - they're pretty good.
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zero7 ft. sia furler - two songs: distractions, destiny
her voice... there's just something about it... man, if only i could sing like that.
my playlist:
> angel, gavin friday > sugar water, cibbo matto > twisted mess, neneh cherry > distractions, zero7 ft. sia furler > destiny, zero7 ft. sia furler > wake up in new york, craig armstrong ft. evan dando > playground love, air > sly (acapella version), massive attack ft. nicolette > colourblind, counting crows > everything, lifehouse > swallow me, esthero > angel, massive attack > never an easy way, morcheeba > fade into you, mazzy star > introduction to romeo, craig armstrong/radiohead > this love, craig armstrong ft. liz fraser
enjoy!
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Saturday, November 29, 2003
oh no no no, you mistake me, kalam. i would NEVER ever let something as stupid as a boy (no offense intended!) dictate where i go or what i do. actually, had i known you were going to be there, i would have gone too. i thought it was going to be a whole bunch of "old fogeys" that i didn't really know anyway. plus, i knew that i was going to meet up with duncan for dinner tonight anyhow. so don't worry, i'm not some pathetic little girl who is hung up on a mean boy, i'm just a pathetic little girl who occasionally has a few moments of blueness. :)
{this begins the discussion of such a moment of blueness. if you dislike hearing me obsess over certain people, or just plain dislike those people, i suggest you skip down to the last three paragraphs}
had a miniature moment of blueness before dinner actually. i'm such a masochist... benita! i'm slipping! i'm not listening to your advice! the mode is off! :( so yeah, b/c i enjoy the torture, i went to check out his site just to see how he's doing and etc... and what do i see but a picture of him and her from a recent formal or something... ouch. (and he looked good too. double ouch. yes, yes, i know, i'm superficial.)
which raises up a few questions:
1) are they back together?
2) if not, does he still like her?
last i heard, she was going out with some other guy, but she still liked him.
3) why should i care?
b/c why shouldn't they go out if they did like each other? i mean, why not? and the more i think about it, i don't like him, i like the him he was. very different people, in my opinion (though you may beg to differ, kal). and i don't even know if it's in the same capacity either. f*ck. i don't want it to be anyway. i deserve better anyhow. (like someone who plays the guitar!!! :p )
-- oh hold on, am talking on the phone with brandon right now... apparently she's not going out with anybody. so i guess that answers my questions.
{this ends the blue period and begins the slightly-annoyed-and-bringing-up-the-past rant. feel free to skip down to the last three paragraphs.}
damn this pride of mine... i think that's the real reason why this stuff bums me out. the whole, "i'm forgettable" thing. i mean, nobody likes to feel like they were unimportant to a person. and in my case, that's how i feel. i mean, there's a big difference to talking almost everyday to not talking for months (especially when you're supposedly "friends"). oh, and can't forget about the declaration of feelings "oh, i'm telling you the truth, i do love you, you just can't handle it!" blah blah blah. what a load of bs. don't i feel stupid now... it stopped hurting long ago, but it still "stings" to think of it... as much as i didn't want to believe it, i probably was the "rebound" or "transition" girl - that's the only thing i can think of that really makes sense. he was just saying those other things to let me down "gently" or some garbage like that, i bet. and honestly, if you don't mean it, don't say it. don't lead people on. boys (and girls, too), i cannot stress this enough. BAH!
i was the person who was there for him when he went through all that crap with his ex, and i was there up until the kim thing. i'm still here now. and of course, she's the one who's mentioned, never me. i know i sound jealous, but you know what? i admit it, i am. actually, everybody else is mentioned except for me. "oh, i'm upset that so-and-so's mad at me, but no, i don't care about my 'best friend' enough". thanks, really. so i concede, you guys were right. we went about it all the wrong way.
ok, now getting kinda mad-ish. prolly more at myself for being such a twit, though.
(geeze, methinks i get riled too easily.) and though some of you think differently, he's not a bad guy. he's actually a nice guy, but one who can't really deal with certain situations well. and the purpose (though it may not seem like it) of me writing this, isn't to bash him. i just need to vent a little.
anyway, this next time, i'm not just going to wait for a certain person. i mean, to other people, that seems just fine... i thought it was fine too, but now i know i need more... i need something based in God... something that will help me grow, not stagnate. and so, i'll wait.
but why does it have to be so lonely?
sigh. probably b/c i'm not reaching out to Him like i should...
{this endeth the ramblings of this clearly crazy girl}
so anyway, feeling much better now with all that stuff outta my system... had a great dinner with my family, jenne's and duncan. dear, i approve! he's a thoroughly nice guy! often, when i meet my friends' boyfriends, i get little feelings of un-pinpointable uncomfortableness or dislike (and as we discovered later, for good reasons too), but in jenne's case, he really IS a nice guy! was expecting him to be a little more outgoing, but then again, he's meeting new people, so that's understandable. but yeah, i approve. he will not be receiving the benefit of my ccsa softball training... ;p
have also been talking with brandon and got off the phone with kalam just now. sooo goood to be talking with guy friends again... i miss them! but yeah, it's nice to know that i can amuse you! and bubba, sorry for confusing you. like i said, don't listen to me, just do what you feel is right.
meanwhile, yeah... got little work done today. atleast i did some? i don't know if i can get together with you tommorrow (since i'll be trying to cram in studying), but i'll see if i can "bump" into you for a little bit or atleast call you, ok liz?
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will elaborate later. (don't worry, it's not bad - just me being stupid.) going to dinner now.
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Friday, November 28, 2003
it really is a small world!
anyway, so back in rainy toronto.. darn! i was really hoping that i'd be able to escape the dreariness back in k-town! the bus ride wasn't so bad... spent it napping, sleeping, and listening to music. that cd i made is great! it's funny how as a child, i never really listened to music that much and now i listen to it incessantly. it just pervades my life... i love it! and it's interesting how, yet again, jonathan's tastes have influenced mine. back then it was nirvana, red hot chili peppers, and etc. (most of which are still great now, btw) and now it's all that trip-hop/soundtrack-y music and jazz. hrm, actually, between the alt.rock, ambient, jazz/swing, classical, and top 40 junk, i've managed to diverge a lot, haven't i? gone are the days of pure unadulterated bsb... {shudder}
so i come home and everything's different... newly renovated bathroom (i walk in the house and wonder "what's that smell?" and then walk in to the bathroom... surprise!), new comp (with a sweet 80gb hard drive and dvd-rom... both of which will be wasted here at home with my *cough cough* "computer savvy" parents... hrm... maybe i can convince them to switch this comp with mine...), and new "surround sound" speakers and stuff... it's great when relatives upgrade and give you their old stuff! :)
well, just wanted to tell you guys that i'm here for the weekend... feel free to give me a call and distract me from studying... :p
oooh! am going to dinner with my family, jenne and duncan tommorrow! yay!
also, i apologise for any spelling errors you may have come across, i'm still not used to this new keyboard... i keep pressing "delete" or "page down" instead of "end"! argh.
anyway, biology beckons... off to work! (somebody, please, distract me!)
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oh, and because brandon was aghast that i didn't include this in my list earlier:
"classic" brandon pick-up lines: >"you're so hot, i could fry an egg on your face."
>"you're so clean, you make soap look dirty."
and a whole lotta other cheesy ones that i've forgotten... my fave's the first though. ;p what were the other ones?
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"how time does fly..." quoth she, originally.
i can't believe i've just finished all my classes for the first term... how can school be almost half-done? i had so many high hopes and goals for this school year, have i been successful thus far? yes and no. i'm learning to put my trust in Him more and to see things through His perspective, but i'm still so self-centered and hesistant to do things out of my "comfort zone". there are so many projects i want to undertake, things i want to do, volunteer for, etc. but i find myself lazy or making excuses. i mean, i want to, but i just won't. that's always been one of my biggest flaws, i think. i'm a thinker, conceptualizer, "good-ideas-comer-upper"... but i'm not a doer, i don't initiate them. which, when you think about, is the most important thing. so what if i have good intentions? (and we all know the old adage about good intentions.) words without actions mean nothing. He deserves better.
so if you guys feel compelled to help keep me accountable, feel free. (i can just see it now: "get off of your lazy ass and actually do something!")
ew. there's a saucepan full of congealed bacon fat... (grace's breakfast) you know, i wish i had the luxury of eating breakfast... but no... no... i have early classes! correction: i did have early classes, this next semester will be sooo sweet! maybe now i'll actually go to the pec? haha, riiight. though i'm thinking of volunteering or working somewhere since i'll have more spare time.
anyway, should prolly start packing since i'm leaving at two-ish for the bus back to toronto. sniff, it'll be good being back in etobicoke! haha, back with my "own kind", not all the billions of markham-ers (markham-ites?) that are found on campus. WEST SIIIIIIIIDE, yo. (what? what? i'm ghetto! "fo' shizzle!" i'm down with the ebonics! hahaha.... you can stop rolling your eyes, brandon...)
meanwhile... so what's with all the stalkers, bubba? such timing!
what if i see him? what if i don't? will it matter? why does it matter? should it?
sigh. i can just see the pangs coming up... :( (sheesh, get a grip over yourself, woman.)
oh, am burning a cd right now for the bus ride back. the theme? songs that you could play on loop forever and ever and ever. criteria: gorgeous. down-key. predominantly trip-hop, but there's other stuff mixed in there too. what would be on your list?
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Thursday, November 27, 2003
and as we start to see the first glimpses of snow (thankfully not full-fledged yet), it's time for.... knitting season!!! haha, grace keeps telling me that i should bring my knitting to class - i can just see it now, some prof getting flustered b/c some girl near the front is watching him intently while knitting throughout the entire lecture. i suppose, it would just be an odd sight. you know, i really would do it if it weren't for the fact that i kinda need to take notes during class... darn...
knitting: the next big thing. (ok, maybe not really... though i heard that there's a shop in pac mall that solely sells knitting stuff... oh, those crazy chinese... ;p )
anyway, a big welcome to alex! :)
you know, reading over my previous blogs (and yes, sometimes i do b/c i'm a big narcissist), i realise that i can be really random and incoherant. so i can no more be indignant when nat tells me that i'm a big rambling crazy... but that's ok, you guys all still love me anyway, right? even if i don't make sense? to which i can hear erin saying "what? but tiffany never makes sense!"
anyway, so i'm going home tommorrow for the weekend. pretty excited to be home again (i <3 my family and friends!) and gonna meet duncan... better brush up on my shanghainese! "veh-lezzeh! vah-ling!" but yeah, have slightly mixed feelings b/c a certain person might be home this weekend too... i don't know... i feel kinda hesitant - especially when midterms have reduced me into "ugly dumpling" (haha, i mean "duckling", can you tell what i just had for dinner? though i wouldn't mind some peking duck...) and you know that whole "the best revenge is looking good" thing. haha, well, not that i want revenge b/c i'm not (i hope!) a bitter person, nor am i angry, but still... you girls know what i mean!
but i don't know... i mean, we still haven't really talked... and i don't want to come off as some girl who's still hung up, but on the other side of the spectrum, i also don't want to seem like i don't care. because i still do... the same capacity, but not necessarily in the same context, if you can follow my fuzzy reasoning. it's just that i think it's stupid to give up on friendships, especially when they've been developing for almost two decades! and at the same time, it bugs the hell out of me to think that i just may be that replaceable in his life - in any of my friends' lives, actually. not meaning to be egotistical or anything, but i'd like to think that i'm actually important in the lives of the people i know. but whatever, there's nothing i can do.
in the end though, i think it all just goes back to trusting God. i don't think there's anything else i can do. He knows what i need and i just have to have faith that He'll do what's best for me. even if it drives me nuts. as it often does. :p
i suppose in the meantime i should just focus on Him and nothing else... perhaps this is all for the best? no distractions this way. just go on my life and wait for the triangle - can't search, b/c it doesn't work that way. other seemingly good methods just don't work. anyway, like it says in ecclesiastes, everything has its own perfect time... i just have to realise that His clock just might not be the same one that i'm running on at the moment!
so, away from distractions, eh? haha, despite the (at times) questionable science program, maybe it's a good thing that i did come all the way to queens in far-away kingston after all... :)
sorry for the melodramatic introspection, guys. actually, i had originally written a little more, but upon reflection, thought it sounded too angsty and made me look worse off than i really am. besides the fact that at the moment there is no life beyond school, life has been good to me. He's blessed me with so much that i really shouldn't complain. speaking of which, my goodness, you guys are awesome! thanks for always leaving me such nice messages - they put a smile on my face everytime i read them!
in honour of this weekend, for you. it's limozeen! ;)
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Wednesday, November 26, 2003
ahhhhhhh... {sigh of contentment}
ok, had the bio practical today and i think i did pretty well. (thanks grace, for all your help! you're the best roomie ever!) thanks for all the prayers, guys! and now on to finals.... sigh.
oooh! i have finished downloading better luck tommorrow, a neneh cherry cd, and the soundtrack from roswell. another two hours and i should have ginger snaps! woohooo! i like this bittorrent thing! :D
and tonight grace and i are having a well-deserved one-hour smallville party! (i miss tv... i didn't earlier in the school year, but i think i do now just b/c i want to procrastinate from studying... haha)
meeting duncan this weekend back in toronto! yay! (time to give him the third degree...)
awww! thanks suz, love you too!
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Tuesday, November 25, 2003
bah, stupid blogger... didn't publish my last post ranting about how newspapers these days have the stupidest articles... like {news flash!!!} "girls' low self-esteem is linked with depression"!!! whoa! and how about this: "marks jolt double cohort." what?! your marks dropped??? university's actually hard?!? to phrase this eloquently, no shit, sherlock! sigh.... froshies... ;)
anyway, going to DIE on this practical tommorrow... (so why am i blogging, exactly?) prayers, people, needing those prayers!
just wanted to say "hi!" to liz b/c i never get a chance to talk with her anymore... :(
hoping everything's going well in the g-spot! hey, so you, me, wareside movie marathon in about a month? whaddaya say?
and speaking of friends, tiffany is feeling lonely... where'd they all go? i miss you guys... (hrm, maybe it's b/c freakin' school doesn't allow me to have any...) also doesn't help that some people are stupid. :(
hey, so while i've been doing my spiritual gifts thing, it brought up a "waiting" gift that hadn't really occurred to me before: creativity and marketing/advertising... kinda interesting, because i've realised that i really do enjoy coming up with cool (well, atleast to me) concepts and ideas... plus you can't discount my gift for gab (and inane chatter). but i AM a pretty good salesperson, eh erin? "and look at this amazing jacuzzi j-series shower! it's got everything! a tv, vcr, 8 shower heads, radio, surround sound..." so this was one thought that i hadn't entertained before - it'll be interesting to see how i can apply it to my life, my future, and towards helping others out... ("i don't know, but i'm going to find out.... REBOOT!" ok, that was random...)
oh, so i'm thinking of putting up those coasters as pictures on my wall or something (hasib's suggestion, my tgs buddy) b/c, yes, they are just that darn cool! 10q 10q 10q, erin!
aiight, gonna check out now and study for 12 straight hours... later, folks! "take the care!"
(oooh, do me a favour and check in at the bottom, okie?)
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Sunday, November 23, 2003
ok, brief segue from studying/restriction mapping:
NEW HELLO KITTY PSYCHOLOGICAL TEST!!!! here it is, verbatim:
"he is...
whether you are already in love with him, or just a secret admirer, a lot of work has been done observing your lover! finish this test by the following life customs and you may know what kind of boy he is. ooh!"
(gotta love that "ooh!" at the end...)
my results:
"vivid:
no one is as enchanting as he is! but this mysterious man changes his mind all the time, and only wants an opponent with equal ability. once he loses interest in you, he will leave you without a word in the manner he normally chooses.
to cope with such a boy, you mus have a random habit of appearing and disappearing from him, sometimes showing your care and sometimes not. leaving is a good way of handling him."
i can't believe i'm saying this, but despite her backwards, grammatically incorrect, roundabout words, i think hello kitty is right... goodness, i can't believe i'm agreeing with her!?!?!?! am i going nuts?????
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blech. school sucks!
stupid restriction map... i mean, if you're going to give us data, why don't you give us CORRECT data instead of making us "tweak" (i now hate that word) the data making it even more imprecise AND wasting our time?
but i'll get it done... should do well on it. unfortunately, that is not the case for my biol 200 practical on wednesday... need many fervent prayers wrt that one... {gulp}
pretty uneventful day... mostly worked on school stuff, downloaded smallville episodes and music off with my newly acquired bittorrent thingy (sigh... took kazaa off my comp and am now using a different medium... hooray for time-wasting! oh well, atleast i have the new dido cd now - though i liked her first cd better), also went to sunday school and church (i am really enjoying the sunday school... i'm learning so much about myself - and what others see in me - that i had never really given thought to before).
so apparently lab rob asked jess again if i was single... have no idea why - kinda weird b/c i only spoke with him once last year (when jess asked me to be nice to him... this is all your fault!) and i haven't spoken to him at all this year...
haha, so perhaps my sparkling wit is finally taking effect? (whoa! long-term, too!)
but alas, still no trail of smitten boys yet! nary a one in sight...
and hey! still waiting for my hot, slightly scruffy (mmmmm), brown-haired "dream boy" (literally)... he's sure taking his sweet time coming! oooh oooh! maybe he plays the guitar and sings too!!! i never thought about that - this brings new dimensions to my "dream boy"!!!! :D
ahahahahaha... ok, so enough of this frivolity... back to studying!
p.s. man, those coasters still ROCK! remind me to send erin a thank you note or something soon (like after i'm done the practical).
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Saturday, November 22, 2003
omg. so erin gave me the BEST birthday present ever!!! :D
got it in the mail yesterday... teen girl squad coasters!
they look SO GOOD, yo! I LOVE THEM!!!! (thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!)
ok, so you guys have to come over and visit just so you can see these awesome coasters!
man... don't want to study for bio!!!! doing orgo on a saturday morning is bad enough! (but on the plus side, its always great to hang out with jess) :)
but had a pretty nice night yesterday... woke up from the nap and then grace and i made good on our free dinners from the brew pub (our landlord's restaurant/pub). the food was really good plus we got dessert! we had lampchops, chips, and smoked bbq chicken and ribs. (mmmm.... ribs...) had apple crips and bourbon pie a la mode afterwards.... and the best part (besides the tasty eats) was that we only had to pay for the tip! (i love my landlord!)
afterwards, we checked out the nearby video/dvd rental place (classic video)... was pleased to note that they had an awesome selection (new releases and plenty of great movies of all genres - heck, they even have anime!) for $2 to $5.50! heck, i'm convinced! they even have two copies of better luck tommorrow on dvd - who has a dvd player here in kingston so i can watch it? haha, they have an extensive collection of dvds for tv series too.... like every single star trek (tng) episode...
anyway, gonna eat and then study/do assignments. later.
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Friday, November 21, 2003
honestly, i really do think i am living unhealthily. this whole sleep-deprivation thing is getting worse and worse. today i slept through every single one of my classes... and not just for a minute or two - no, it was more like 20 minute chunks of time where i'd lose total consciousness. and of course, i'm sitting smack dab in the middle of the lecture hall... the worst part was when i was in the orgo tutorial and kept on falling asleep... and there were only around twelve of us there!
so this would be all-nighter #2 of the year so far... i can't stand this! and the stupid part is that i still have ANOTHER bio assignment due and my stupid bio 200 lab practical (where i HAVE to do well or else my mark for that class is going to s.u.c.k.) and then... FINALS! woot. :'( no, not really...
atleast american thanksgibing is coming up and i can finally meet duncan! (hahaha, maybe i'll pull a jon and make fun of his smile!) :D but yeah, can't wait for that. if only that weekend didn't come at such an inopportune time (i.e. right before my finals, and right after a hectic week... i know this is rather vain of me, but i really have been looking like crap this past month. i don't want to go home and face certain people looking like this!
so... feel like having a martingrove reunion... not for a while, i suppose... but atleast i saw jeanie yesterday! ("psst! guess what? tiffany likes _______! don't tell anyone!") and check this out! i was talking with grace (from my bio lab), and it turns out she's from etobicoke too! she went to west humber and she knew imran!!! haha, we were so etobicoke-deprived (in this markham-filled atmosphere), that we launched into this really long conversation about etobicoke and high school and stuff... good times, good times. man, i'm so glad that i landed in my bio 205 lab group - they're so fun to hang around!
got a letter from jenne in the mail yesterday. that's right... REAL MAIL! that's two so far, folks... keep sending 'em my way! if you don't have my address or contact info, just ask.
jeezeburger, i miss hanging out with keith. the bum. >_<
i wanna go home... where's mommy and daddy?
have been getting some feedback on my spiritual gifts thingy from people - very enlightening and encouraging too. but please pray for me. have been very unfocused with the craziness that is university, and have been finding myself forgetting to spend some quiet time with God.
ok, i really am tired. am going to nap now. talk to y'all later...
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Thursday, November 20, 2003
so... friggin... tired...
(sorry for the language)
on the plus side, got to visit jeanie and jen's place today! :) love ya, hun!
man, i can't keep this up. all these damn orgo, bio, and bio labs are going to be the death of me... not to mention my upcoming practical and finals... ugh.
come unto Me, all who are weak, weary and heavy laden.
gentle am I, humble at heart, and you shall find rest for your soul.
~ matthew 11
i could use some of that refreshment right about now... it's going to be a looong night...
in the meantime, hoping everything is going well with all of you... don't forget to let me know how y'all (look! i'm britney spears! i said "y'all"!) are doin'...
<3 ya.
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Wednesday, November 19, 2003 USATODAY.com - 'Family Guy' may return excellent... (though maybe they should cut out those 5 minute long random scenes of peter laughing - or nursing a stubbed toe - enough already!) but more stewie please!
am busy working on orgo and drosophila labs... {sob}
in the meantime, leave me a message!
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Monday, November 17, 2003
THANKS GUYS! my friends are AWESOME! :)
got calls from my darling tacb (mei, benita, and allison!!!), my brother, marco, ebru, danny, and even uncle fred! liz blogged me a happy birthday, and so many people (erin, jess, brandon, tina, amanda, simon, ju, to name a special few!) messaged and emailed me too! hadn't heard from some of them in ages too! tiffany feels warm, fuzzy, and special!
so... i got REAL MAIL today!!! my first at this address, since all i've gotten are bills, credit card applications, and samples. THANK YOU BENITA!!!! your card(s) were so cool! and that pic is going into my wallet as i type... done! haha, now there are three pics of you in my wallet!
blech. night labs suck. atleast i won't have any next semester!
not so happy story: ok, so after lab, got a phone call from a friend who i hadn't see in quite a while... found out exactly why i hadn't seen him... it sucks and there's nothing i can do about it - but atleast he's not going to avoid me anymore (i hope). so stupid. but atleast i know now? i guess its actually a big compliment, and i respect his decision, but it sucks b/c he was my best guy friend here at queens. i don't know, it just doesn't seem very fair with regards to me. well... so it looks like i'm less yet another close male friend - and i thought it was bad enough when i lost my best guy friend... sheesh, they're droppin' like flies... is keeping my good friends too much to ask for? if it's not one thing, it's another! but i'll take what i can get, i suppose. a friend to any degree is one to be treasured anyhow!
but yeah, taking applications for the position of "friend"... there are unlimited spots available! pick up your form today!
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ok... productive day...
more punk'd, talking to americans, and food.
and many, many phone calls and messages... :)
"christian" pick-up lines:
> you put the "cute" back in persecution!
> are you cold? ephesians 4:11 > hey baby, you wanna take the church van for a spin?
> i don't speak in tongues, but i kiss that way.
> you want to come over and watch the 10 commandments tonight?
> excuse me, but can i drinkith from your cupith?
science-y pick-up lines:
> You and I would add up better than a Riemann sum.
> My love for you is like a concave up function because it is always increasing
> I can approximate your "Big O" with my orthogonal vectors!
> absolute maximae... (enough said.)
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Sunday, November 16, 2003
such a nice day yesterday!
it was so good to see my mom and dad again! aw, i missed them! they came over (with furniture and lotsa food), we went on a walk, and then we had crab, mussels, "cha siew", fried rice, and lotsa other stuff that they brought over from toronto... mmm!
afterwards, grace and i watched some quality abc programming... "i think you're amazing... {grin}" (we'll never tell which movie we saw last night... the BEST movie ever!
afterwards, went over to jess and vic's where they surprised me with a surprise party! they called everyone up and they came over! :) i've said it once, and i'll say it again: my friends are AWESOME!
haha, so no, jason, i did not get drunk last night! they wanted me to, just so they could see the extent of my "asian red" though... (stupid friends... {muttering}) only had one drink, but man, did i get red... but no red neckline! i tell you, that last time was just my neck wrinkles, darnit! hahaha, no, it was pretty fun last night. we just hung out and chatted last night (never a dull moment with hasib around, i'll tell you that...). oh goodness, were also watching more episodes of punk'd last night... man, that show is SO mean! ashton kutcher is such a bastard to his friends! (but it's still SOOO funny...)
anyway, thanks for all the well-wishes guys!
goodness, i'm officially twenty now! i'm so old!
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Saturday, November 15, 2003
yay! mummy and daddy are going to be here soon... <3
it'll be soooo goood to see them again! (not to mention get some new furniture and homecooked meals...)
thanks for all the good wishes guys :)
gonna go mix drinks with jess and vic later tonight... ;)
slayer mode: on.
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haha, ben, to tell you the truth, i WAS comtemplating telling them to bring you, mei, and allison up... but we WILL celebrate when we all get back to toronto... ;)
oh man, i'm not going to be a teenager for much longer... {panic}
so... am tired. but good. :)
after classes, worked on fly lab... man, nuno is weird! nice, but really weird. interesting dance there... oh, and my lab group is so funny! ("i think i have a crush on him!!" hahahaha) though i still don't see what all the hullaballo about eckert is... but chacun son gout, to each his own...
went to the cat centre with vic, nick, and duncan afterwards... haha, after a freakin' long bus ride! did some shopping... got some free perfume samples from estee lauder (i <3 freebies!) and bought yet even more chocolate! then went to kelsey's for dinner (mmmm... medium rare 6 oz. ny steak sandwich....) and then caught master and commander at cineplex. was a pretty good movie... such a brainless movie, but not in a dumb way. 'twas very entertaining. i actually liked it better than matrix revolutions. and man, that little blond ten-year old kid was such a cutie!
just got back home. have to tidy up before parents come!
oh, also saw an episode of punk'd for the first time... man, ashton kutcher is such a bastard! hahaha, though it was cruel, it was pretty funny when they played that prank of hilary duff... :D
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Wednesday, November 12, 2003
oh look. it's raining in kingston. again.
bah, i hate planning things. what kinda stuff do you think i should do with people on saturday night and sunday?
mummy and daddy are coming by on saturday afternoon to visit!!! :)
quick! what kinda stuff should i ask them to bring over?
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***TAKE NOTE ***
NO, MY BROTHER IS NOT GETTING MARRIED ANYTIME SOON!!!!!!
i was just wondering when he would... he doesn't have any plans to (in my knowledge) for a while... goodness, that would just be too weird for me...
oh ben, i left some good sites to check out for freebies (on your blog).
oh, so i finally finished and sent out that mass update email that i've been working on for this past month... now on to the phase 2, the "meaty" part of my "on-dev-ooor"! (haha, remember that, liz?)
also: i finished adding some new captions and pics to my pic site (courtesy of marco, grace and simon's cameras since i don't have a digital camera of my own...), so be sure to check those out! i've added some pics to some of the old albums too.
soooo tired... i managed to fall asleep in every class today... especially stats (which i feel bad about b/c my prof is the funniest!)... am so sleep deprived... it's all those damn 8:30s! :(
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Tuesday, November 11, 2003
whoa... just saw how many messages ben left....
BENITA, YOU ARE THE GREATEST GIRL EVER!!! LOVE YOU LOTS!!! <3
if you don't know benita, then you're missing out, b/c folks, she's an absolute sweetie! *muah* xoxoxoxo
awww... i miss TACB now....
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hello all! man, i love my tuesdays... two classes, then three hour break, orgo, then i'm done! maybe i just like them b/c i don't have any stupid labs... :p
so after classes today, pravin came over to hang... was really nice b/c we never see each other anymore. haha, we were talking about cartoons, food, europe, mythology, and other "matters of consequence"! we're going to have to meet up again and update each other on various things, but it was cool just to hang out today. plus, we had chocolate, so that makes any day great!
benita, dear, of course you're my best! i wouldn't have it any other way! :) (don't worry, i'm going to check out your page too! hahaha)
meanwhile, it seems that i have expanded my "tiffany school of dating" to a "tiffany school of breaking-up/getting-over-people" branch... hurry and get your diploma now!
having too much fun adding strong bad emoticons to my msn... go to www.mess.be for fun msn stuff... (it's great for time-wasting!)
question: is keith chung still alive? if he is, i haven't seen any evidence of it... hmph.
haha, so i found this kinda funny... was in my genetics lab last night and we were reviewing some translation stuff... this codon "CGU" kept popping up, and i couldn't stop laughing (to myself... not outloud or else people would look at me funny...) b/c it reminded me of CGNU, and i kept picturing strong bad talking about "crazy go nuts university"...
oh oh oh! so you know what i found out? another one of my family friends (one of the agape kids) is getting married next year!! that makes three agape kids getting married in a span of 4 weeks and they're all within five years of my age!!!! i mean, it's weird enough that some of my friends my age are getting married, but agape kids?? dude! i haven't even had any successful relationships and yet these people are getting married at 25? huh. i wonder when jon's going to get married..... WEIRDNESS!
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Monday, November 10, 2003
welcome benita!!! :D
so benita invited me and the girls (TACB, of course!) to this winter formal on december 23rd... i think it's a fundraiser of some sort... sounds like it could be fun... dressing up, ten course meal, dancing... but alas, i don't have an escort... hahaha... anyway, since pretty much the only people who read this blog are the people i know, just wondering if you guys were interested in going? just let me know before the 28th of november, so my friend can reserve tickets. for details: check out http://www.geocities.com/jinger_kiss/WCBinviteV1.jpg
"... unless she's trying to suck out my eyeballs..." "seeeeeee! seeeeeeeee!" "shut up!"
oh man. so obsessed! so you guys have to go to www.homestarrunner.com and click on the "what's new - cd out next week" button... you can preview songs from the cd...
"oh girl... yeah, i said, oh girl... dang! you don't look half bad!"
"2-3-4 i think i have a chance with this guy... guy.... guy... guy..."
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hungry, i come to you for i know you satisfy
i am empty but i know your love does not run dry
So i wait for you, so i wait for you
i've fallen on my knees, offering all my needs
Jesus, you're all this heart is living for
broken i run to you for your arms are open wide
i am weary but i know your touch restores my life
So i wait for you, so i wait for you
i am weak, but you give me strength... is there anything You can't do?
never let me doubt You, or think that i know better than You...
and most importantly... never let me go...
and on a completely different tangent:
dude. do you realise that i'm going to leave my teens behind in one week exactly? i'm not ready yet! i still have so much more living to do!!! so many responsibilities left unshirked!
also: rohan! i'm glad to see that you're still a part of the living! :D
had a really nice day today... had to wake up early this morning b/c i was meet phoebe for sunday school today... was tired b/c went to sleep late the night before. when xin, suz, and i were finished watching the matrixrevolutions, it was past one. they ended up coming over to my place to order a pizza, chat, and introduce xin to the world of homestar (erin, i hope you realise that this obsession is ALL your doing... :p hahaha, it probably would've happened anyway, i never realised how widespread that site is!). anyway, so while they were over, i continued touching up the stencils on my wall (they look pretty good, actually!) and continued to paint until the random hour of four in the morning. (was also talking with danny at around 3:30am or something). so yeah, have to learn not to start projects at insane hours in the morning!
my matrix 3 review:
it was ok. entertaining, but not that good. even worse than the 2nd movie (and i didn't even really like the 2nd one either... too much nonsensical, philosophical junk). but yeah, this one was pure action. and there were SO MANY cheesy and laughable parts (that weren't supposed to be!) and man, keanu reeve's acting comes and goes... some parts... sooo bad... and the movie seemed really short, too.
anyway, back to my day... ok, so went to sunday school - it was really good. it's nice to have such a wide range of ages in the group... get lots of the wise insight of the more elderly people... very interesting. anyway, i'm really excited about this week, b/c we're starting to fill out our personal gifts inventory questionnaire... i'm really hoping that this will clarify and maybe bring purpose or focus to my life?
so, i'm actually going to your help... i'm not trying to fish for compliments, but i honestly need to know what you find my strengths to be. honestly. not ones that i think i have or ones i want to have, but the gifts i actually possess. i'm hoping that i'll really put them to use, once i figure out what they are. i'm kinda excited, but a little nervous... i really feel God calling me to do something for the community... not just utilizing for myself and friends... because, really, how can you call yourself gifted in one thing if it's just towards your friends? anyone can be nice to the people they like, but it takes that extra... grace? for someone to utilize their gifts for strangers, or even people they dislike.
so have been getting to know phoebe better these days, which is really cool, b/c she's really nice person, lives really close, and someone who could keep me accountable spiritually, i think. hopefully i'll join her monday evening bible studies? oh! and she's going to teach me to play the guitar!!! yay!
was talking with benita today... miss her lots! haven't spoken to her in ages... i feel bad that we've drifted apart... i mean, i didn't even know about some of the stuff that's been happening in her life, much less the way she feels about them... so it appears we're in the same-ish boat now.... that's ok... we're buffy and tuffy! stupid-boy slayers extraordinaire! making the world a better place, one less boy at a time... mwahahahaha! <3 we musn't forget the steps!! they're crucial!
and yet still... why do i remain stagnant? ...
so went to my cell group potluck dinner today. truth be told, i actually didn't want to go, b/c i thought it would be awkward since i've missed all the cell group meetings so far (since i haven't been to fellowship in a month) and thus didn't really know anyone. but i keep forgetting that God is good and that he'll take care of me... i mean, to you, this may not seem like a big thing, but for me... it's b/c i'm such a people-person, that other people's opinions of me matter so much (thought they really shouldn't). it can even get to the point where i'll skip something b/c i dont' think that people will like me... man, these insecurities! but i've been slowly praying and working on them... slowly.... i realised that all these fears are absolute garbage, and the only thing they're doing is holding me back. (though easier said than done).
but anyway, i had to go, b/c i told alice i was going to (couldn't think of a good excuse not to go, and knew that i shouldn't miss it anyhow) but honestly, everyone was so friendly, and it was just really nice and low-key. just a buncha people chatting, eating, and watching the food network! hahaha... but yeah, met some really nice people! plus, i am SO taking jon wong on for a euchre tournament... guys against girls... the stake: bragging rights! (though us girls already won them since we won the couch game.... soooo long, but so much fun! your head starts to hurt after awhile... hahaha, i'm such flake... "who's tiffany? oh wait! i am!")
{surveys what she wrote} dude... i write too much.
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Saturday, November 08, 2003
hi ria! a big "welcome!" to the blog! :)
SIGH... (of contentment! hahaha)
i thought i was going to be lonely with grace in toronto for the weekend, but am having a great time! and boy, did i need it...
ok, so guess what time i went to sleep on thursday night?
I DIDN'T!!!!
yup, that's right... from 6pm thursday night to 2:35 pm friday afternoon, tiffany was typing away at her computer, writing about uv and yeast... FUN FUN FUN! well, atleast grace, hasib, and marco were also here to keep me company... i think every biol 205 student was pulling an all-nighter that evening...
oh, and in case you forgot, the reason why i was doing this lab report so last minute was because i had another lab report and two midterms this week as well!!!! i am SO glad this week is over!
but here are my nice weekend plans:
friday
- crashed for an hour or so after handing in my lab.... sweet... glorious... sleeeeeep....
- ketan dropped by to hang-out! (and build shelves... and nap... haha)
- imran and their housemate phil came over as well
- after they left, had a phone date with jenne
- called up simon to chat... WE MISS YOU OVER HERE!!!
saturday:
- slept in
- did a little bit of shopping
- jess dropped by and we went out to megalo's for a late lunch and caught up on each other's lives
- am going to reorganise my room now
- see matrix revolutions with suz and xin later tonight!
sunday:
- sunday school and service
- have lunch with phoebe
- homework!!! study...
- potluck dinner with the cell group
and just when i was lamenting last week how i had no friends! i was starting to get a little depressed and lonely... most likely b/c i've been so isolated here since school got crazy. but God is good and as you can see, He's taking care of me! just when i needed it, too. and mind you, this wasn't even me trying to set this stuff up (b/c i normally am the one who does), they all called me up! spontaneity is great! but yeah, my friends are such blessings to me...
so i dedicate this portion of my blog to my friends :
i thank my God every time i remember you... it is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since i hold you in my heart... (phil 1:3,7a) Thank you for being a part in my life. i love you all! <3
ok, so i told jess the part 2 of the saga that is my life... rather, the saga that was my life because distance and busyness have thankfully kept things out of the soap opera realm! but yeah, thinking back to everything, i feel so removed from it now... i can honestly thank God for that, or else i'd probably be one big mess! everything for a reason, eh? but at the same time, i feel like i'm not doing enough for Him and other in my life... i mean, i'm full of all these great ideas and a "new"attitude, but i rarely ever implement (or atleast, finish) them. so that's what i suppose i'm trying to change these days? to be more of an active christian with the people i love. but not just towards my friends... i want to go out of my comfort zone and do something different... i'm just not sure what! we'll see... in the meantime though, i'm just trying to be more encouraging with the people around me in a constant fashion, not just when they need it... i think that's my personal goal for this year.
of course he doesn't know this since we don't really talk anymore, but i'm really worried about one of my friend's health. and it hurts that i can't be there for him. of course, how i feel is rather trivial to the matter anyway, but i wish that there was something i could actively do for him.
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
this. totally. bites.
man, i am SO looking forward to friday, 3:00 p.m. when this "hell week" will officially be over...
pangs... miniature-sized ones though...
way to make me worry about you... :(
side note: how come i never warranted the same response?
why, oh why do i do this to myself? damn these masochistic tendencies...
prayer requests:
1. focus
2. quiet times
3. health of friends
4. hurting friends
5. school nonsense
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Monday, November 03, 2003
what a waste of time!!!! GRRR!
so i get into etherington for my psych midterm... placed my bag at the front and sat down... and then some guy at the front of the aud says "your exam has been postponed. please exit the building" while my prof grabs all her stuff and leaves the room looking MAJORLY pissed... it seems that there was a "bomb threat" or something (a.k.a. somebody who probably got too drunk during the halloween weekend to study for the midterm, so they called the university). great. now i still have all those other things due this week... PLUS i still have the midterm! argh! and i even studied by CANDLELIGHT last night (b/c they were fixing something in the manhole across the street and had to shut down the power on the block for "5 minutes", which really turned into almost 40 minutes...)
stupid stupid stupid!
in other news, congrats danny!!! i knew you'd get it! more incentive for me to visit simon at mac next term?
had a nice little chat with pravin just now. it's been too long since we've talked... must remedy that next week (after this "hell week").
it's almost my birthday!!!
matrix revolutions this friday/weekend?
must... go... to... kccf... i haven't been in ages :(
but atleast i started to go to sunday school! (on "spiritual gifts"... it's been very interesting, very discussion-based... i really liked it! hopefully i'll learn what my gifts are and utilize them fully)
check out strong bad's "halloween costume commentary" at homestarrunner.com... have i mentioned how much i love strong bad?
"here i am beating up some kind of... mashed potato man...?"
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Saturday, November 01, 2003
yesterday:
> went to class, studied and worked on assignments during the day.
> wore my cat ears!!! (got a lot of smiles throughout the day, and a little more drunken attention in the night :s )
> goodness, i can't believe there were so many girls dressed up as "catholic school girls"...
> saw sara ford dressed as avril lavigne... the resemblance was so uncanny, it was scary!
> my stats prof is so hilarious! he's the best! he dressed up as "normal man" (complete with black shorts and tights!) and had a normal distribution curve on his costume! "whoa! check out that guy's big samples!"
> question: has keith just dropped off the face of the planet?
> had dinner with the gang at the epicure - pretty good food (at least, the stuff that they did have left!)
> rented below (a ww2, submarine, poltergeist movie) since all the other classic horror movies were already rented out. the general consensus was that it was pretty good (the mirror scene was SO cool! just make sure you don't tell vicky about it!)
> we hung out and watched the movie at xin's house... guess what? he lives with thomas ho! what a small world!
> had a little bit of corona (that stuff smells awful!) and some chocolate (from those door-to-door blind kids, right? sheesh! i never said that! i'm not a horrible person!)
today:
> must STUDY!
> just realised... i have 15 days until i leave my teen years behind! gah! i'm getting OLD!
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