TIFFANYVILLE
tiffany's make-shift planner






.: april :.


10 - PPL final
11 - dave's birthday
16 - pharmaceutics final
19 - pharmaceutical practice final
23 - therapeutics ORAL exam (yikes)
25 - ames' birthday!!!
26 - toxicology final


.: may :.


1 - mom's birthday
2 - pharmacology final
4 - phm analysis final
5 - parents leave for trip
7 - med chem final
10 - patho final
19 - dave's parents arrive
20 - parents return


archives
June 2003 Archive
July 2003 Archive
August 2003 Archive
September 2003 Archive
October 2003 Archive
November 2003 Archive
December 2003 Archive
January 2004 Archive
February 2004 Archive
March 2004 Archive
April 2004 Archive
May 2004 Archive
June 2004 Archive
July 2004 Archive
August 2004 Archive
September 2004 Archive
October 2004 Archive
November 2004 Archive
December 2004 Archive
January 2005 Archive
February 2005 Archive
March 2005 Archive
April 2005 Archive
May 2005 Archive
June 2005 Archive
July 2005 Archive
August 2005 Archive
September 2005 Archive
October 2005 Archive
November 2005 Archive
December 2005 Archive
January 2006 Archive
February 2006 Archive
March 2006 Archive
April 2006 Archive
May 2006 Archive
June 2006 Archive
July 2006 Archive
August 2006 Archive
September 2006 Archive
October 2006 Archive
November 2006 Archive
December 2006 Archive
January 2007 Archive
February 2007 Archive
March 2007 Archive
April 2007 Archive







faerylicious images & design.
name : tiffany
faith : christian.
nationality : cbc.
status : <3
living in : toronto.
school / major : UT / pharmacy


.: my stats, as of 11/05/06 :.

mood : tired.
likes : my friends. bunnies fronting as pillows. keeners.
dislikes : exams. lack of sleep. keeners.
wishlist : "connections".
current distractions : dexter, top model, heroes.
wondering : hmmm, is it too late for me re-learn study habits?




and b/c it can't be
said enough:
I LOVE DAVE. :p



.: fun links :.

blogger
my old site
my first photo album
homestar runner (sb emails! tgs!)
red flag deals (great freebies)
jung personality quiz
the personality types
dictionary.com
twop - the best in snark
post secret
ghetto foodies
my flickr page
web msn
delta book club blog
makezine crafts
boing boing
ask metafilter
craftster
statcounter
stencilry
jayisgames



.: friends' links :.

[infrequent updaters]
erin's abstruse literature
jess' mess
jon (my brother)
keith
ming
victoria
marco
benita & clara
lyds
nat's photography
benita freewebs
[fairly frequent updaters]
felix
ju
liz
debbie
tomlin
ming
vancouver dave
matt mark
amanda
danny
ames
iulia
mei
allison
michelle
giz
candeo
divine_conspiracy
hmpark

.: guestbook :.
leave a comment
the feedback







Monday, June 30, 2003

ok, my ire has now passed (though i still hate queen's/qcard and i still don't know which courses i should take... 6/4? ew.) i'm calm and collected. and feeling a bit melancholy now b/c i didn't get a chance to be last night/this morning since i've been so busy choosing a workable course selection. (see, i wasn't lying.)

posted @ 12:32:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


rant - stuff that is PISSING ME OFF right now

ok, nine things i am absolutely detesting right about now:
1) queen's
2) this damn queen's preregistration process (scheduling conflicts, full classes, "requirements")
3) dial-up... plus those damn people that keep calling to kick me off this crappy dial-up
4) qcard and its stupid bolded, capslocked, ugly fonts
5) nagging
6) did i mention preregistration?
7) when there are no new messages in my inbox (real ones, not forwards and comics) even though i'm expecting one (ok, this isn't as much pissing me off as it is disappointing... i'm no good with patience)
8) any pages related to queens... especially the course timetable one that keeps crashing on me
9) whatever's keeping me from taking micr 221 and any psych course at all

posted @ 11:58:00 a.m.

[]

+ + +

Sunday, June 29, 2003

ow. i feel slightly stiff. could be b/c of the double header we had yesterday... or b/c i was sleeping on that very uncomfortable, short, curved, saggy couch downstairs... yeah, so we won both games yesterday (was there any doubt?). i'm really excited about the season... i get to play second base every single game, every single inning... yay! i was actually really nervous before, but now that i've played a few games, i feel so much more confident... maybe b/c the people on my team are still so supportive when i screw up anyway, so it doesn't really matter. i really am my own worse critic. plus, i've got great players backing me up as well, so they make me look good anyway! :) i really hope that this year our team rises above a lot of the petty little squabbling that happens between ccsa teams (and often with our own team), b/c really, it's all supposed to be for God. but then again, i think this stuff will probably happen anyway, just b/c of little misunderstandings and stuff. but let's hope that we can really live out our team name: christians in action (cia). but yeah, i think we'll do just as well as we did last year standings-wise (we placed second!), if not hopefully better. we'll see. but my goodness, in one of our games yesterday, we out-scored the other team by more than 5 times! it's because we always have so many power hitters... anyhoo, it was fun playing, and since there are some new people on the team, i got to meet some more cool people my age (mike, allison, and dan)... yay for making new friends! let me just say this as well: mike (of the stolen bike :P), you are the nicest guy!

yeah, so after the games, we went for korean bbq. sick. it's the nastiest, but yummiest thing ever! just don't think about how many cows you're consuming... and ignore the congealing fat on the sides of your soya sauce bowl... ew. but, my goodness, it's SO GOOOOOD! i ate way too much, waaaaay too late... hurrah for gluttony? sigh. got there just before ten, didn't leave for another two hours... didn't get home for another two hours after that... completely stuffed....

what courses should i take for next year? must decide.

must re-evalute some things in my life... OH! and MUST clean up my room before my parents come home tommorrow! ACK! very messy...

posted @ 6:14:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +

Friday, June 27, 2003

question: why are all the people on aa so ghetto?
you know what's funny? when you go to those pages where they showcase "hot" aa guys and almost all of them are thugs! not really my type at all, thank you. i suppose there are some cute ones, but i generally think that they are the ones that AREN'T pretending to be black! please tell me that i'm not the only one who thinks this...

sidenote: i'm ONLY on aa just to read my friends' pages... nothing else! i swear! and no, you can't know my aa nickname... though, rest assured, it's definitely not along the lines of "hot_azn_baybee69" or something else just as ridiculous

posted @ 3:01:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


well... yesterday was an interesting night... spent it with a whole lotta guys and a whole lotta basketball... excuse me if the nba draft isn't exactly my idea of "must see tv", but hey, chacun son gout.... to each his own. was supposed to go over to kalam's to watch a movie with kalam and his friends, but since they came late, it ended up being me, kal, boy genius, and all his friends watching the draft. so i took a little nap. after a while, i went on a "date" with danny to the lcbo (what a way to win a girl's heart!) and got "blacklisted" from that location b/c the cashier guy recognised danny (who's 19) and refused to sell him anything since he had been there earlier with a friend who was underage. sheesh. holy really-should-have-punched-him-out-ness! oh well, i'm not really that big of a drinker anyhow... but big news! danny and i are going out now, right? heh heh ;) anyway, after coming back from our little excursion, we come back to a house with yet even more guys, and kalam tells me that since he has only been able to get a hold of simon (a really nice eng from queen's too!), we're going to go watch/play basketball at devry (i didn't even know there was a devry here... it's actually across the street from the heartland's loblaws). yeah, so even more basketball, but it was more interesting to watch, talked a bit with simon, the weather was comfortable, and you know, there was some eye-candy there... so... yeah... (not that i'm a superficial person or anything...)

after a while, we headed back to their house to watch a movie (antwone fisher), but i kinda didn't want to watch the movie (not in a drama movie mood) and i needed to rant at dave, so i ended up hanging out with him for a few hours (his friends had all went home). i swear, that boy dislikes conversation that involves thinking! grrr. when the movie was done, ed came down and started playing dave on his playstation... street fighter, what else would you expect from him? i played a little bit too and have decided that it's way more fun when the game is button-mash-friendly (capcom vs. marvel) and i get full stars (while he has practically none) and i'm on beginnner mode... heh heh. i like choosing the guys who take out his opponents' entire power bar with just one punch... cheap playing is fun! (thanks for letting me win... :p)

but there's only so much video games i can take... so when ed came back to challenge dave again after winning an inuyasha doll (will have to watch with jess some time) on ebay, i started to nap a bit... so tired... basement SO freaking COLD... and i didn't get home 'til around 4:45am... and sadly, i bet david stayed up a few more hours later just to play war. boys... what's with the obsession with video games?

posted @ 2:50:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +

Thursday, June 26, 2003

damn boys.

posted @ 3:59:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


evening was good. made "pasghetti" for jon and me (with "dong-gu" instead of the normal kind of mushrooms b/c we didn't have any... it's called improvising!) and it was quite yummy, if i do say so myself! i have a very limited cooking repetoire, but what i can do, i do well. (at least that's what i like to think!) well, at any rate, i may not be "prostar", but i maintain that it was still better than that time when my brother decided to experiment and started to throw "party mix" (i.e. pretzels and etc.) into our alfredo sauce for our parent's anniversary dinner... hey, you may have liked it, but i wasn't that big on the mushy breadedness of it...

then went over to kalam and david's to hang out with the latter. "jeezeburger!" no, i will not play war! i refuse! i spent too much time at rez watching my guy friends waste their lives by choosing gaming over real, human interaction... i prefer my alternative instead... super nes! it's all about the 2-D super mario world! either that, or my non-game option... ;)
yeah, so some other pretty funny stuff happened... well, i thought it was funny... "what the heck?" what can i say, i'm a pretty easy-going girl!

going over again tommorrow? not sure yet.

posted @ 12:40:00 a.m.

[]

+ + +

Wednesday, June 25, 2003

to all those people at queen's who keep asking me to send them my digital pics (actually, grace's pics from her camera)... i'll have them available for you soonish... just gotta wait until i have fast internet again on my own comp, so i can upload them onto photo.epson.com... i'll let you know when i've got them ready (just go to the site when they are, and type in my quitesleepy@yahoo.ca email addy)
anyhow, i'll let you guys know.


jerk.
(don't worry, not you)

posted @ 5:07:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


yesterday night was good... went out with justin to see the hulk (not bad movie, in my opinion, but never saw the cartoon/tv show) and we just hung out and talked and stuff. good times. yummy popcorn too! thanks justin, you're the best!

saw mei today... watched happy gilmore (again) "hey moron, good for happy gilmo... mo... mo.. moh, my Gawd!", the 'zack attack' sbtb episode, took lotsa stupid pics and laughed SO much!
and our fave dialogue of the day:
"just stay outta my way... or you'll pay... listen to what i say..." (shooter mcgavin)
"how 'bout i just go eat some hay? ... i can make things out of clay... and lay by the bay... i just may... whaddaya say?" (happy)
sigh. love you lots, hon. (even if you DO ditch me for gay-bo...) have a great time in texas! i'll miss you! oh, and "the alamo has no bay-sement! haha!"

now awaiting a phone call of some sorts...

hey, you know what's one of my number 1 pet peeves? unreliability. honestly, if you say you're going to be somewhere or that you're going to do something, then do it! i mean, when it comes to promptness, i know i'm not exactly the candidate for it, but c'mon, i'm within reason! and when i know i'm going to be late or can't do something, i always try to let the person know! at least leave some sort of message or explanation! ARGH.

oh, pet peeve number 2... this one is phone-related... it's actually two parts: 1) faxes (i hate expecting a call and hearing that stupid "beeeeeep.... beeeeeep.... beeeeep...." on the line), and 2) people who call and never say anything on the phone. i mean, AT ALL. (although those people who call me and expect me to supply all of the conversation while they speak monosyllabically gets on my nerves too) and i know that they haven't hung out yet b/c there's no dial tone! granted, i've never heard any heavy breathing on the other line or anything (how creepy would that be?), but seriously! we get one of those calls every day! sometimes even three times in one day! i mean, either it's a prank call (which is kinda dumb b/c they aren't even asking if my refrigerator is running or anything) or someone is stalking me... either way, i think it's a little excessive!

posted @ 5:02:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +

Monday, June 23, 2003

bah! so mei can't make it tonight b/c she's having dinner at pac mall with her family... (take lotsa sticker pictures for me! oooh! and don't forget the "cool" peace sign posturing!) i guess it'll just be me and my lonesome tonight... sniff sniff... hrm. do you think grace could spare me one of her boys from "ten date night" so i won't be so lonely?

but going out with justin tommorrow! yay! should be lotsa fun. don't know if we're just going to see a movie or just hang out at my house, but it'll be good nonetheless. we gotta continue our talk from friday! man, it's so good to see him again... it's been too long... i haven't spent quality time (or any time, for that matter) with the old cia crew. must remedy that in the near future. shoot, i'm so bad with keeping in touch!

posted @ 7:30:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


ahhhhhh.... the sweet smell of independence... my parents are officially out-of-town! have house semi-to-myself... yay! anybody want to come over and hang out? feel free to give me a call anytime or just drop by!

i think mei's gonna come over tonight... adam sandler movie night tonight???

for you: :)

posted @ 2:57:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +

Sunday, June 22, 2003

hah! i totally owned second base today! yeah, we had practice today - and exhibition game - and i think our team's in pretty good shape. (no more second place this year... we're going to be number one! ... i hope.) we mercied. a lot. gotta work on my batting (wait for the right pitch, timing, stance, etc.) a bit more, but i think i'm doing pretty well. i assisted on most of the game's outs, so that made me happy. still gotta work on not being scared when the guys murder the ball in my direction though... but can't wait until the season starts next week. oooh! we finally get to play against the angels this year! that'll be fun! i'm curious to see how benita plays! :p

oh, i am so totally not a nerdicus... you're the one that's a dewface!

common sense... such a lack of it... SHEESH.

posted @ 9:11:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +

Saturday, June 21, 2003

OH. MY. GOD. (not blaspheming here.)
Oh. My. GOD.

what does this mean for our heroine?
only time will tell...

(why didn't he tell me earlier?)

posted @ 10:08:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


goodness. was thinking about... today...
couldn't help it! this stuff sucks!

posted @ 7:43:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


three days worth of blogging:

found out that the interview place DID call me back for the second interview, but no one told me this b/c my dad, after pressing the answering machine button, only listened to the first message on the tape and not the second! if it weren't for my mom over-rewinding to hear a different message the next day, i wouldn't have even found out about it. anyway, it's been a really busy few days... sorry i haven't been able to really update - it seems we're back to dial-up for the next while or so.... UGH.

anyhow, on thursday i went with adrienne's school (good ol' broadacres... so many good memories in that ugly little building...) to the boyd conservation area as a "parent". yay for supervising fourth graders! nah, it was pretty cool hanging out with my cousin and her friends. plus i got to see a turkey vulture, great horned owl, barn owl, and red-tailed hawk, so that was pretty cool. but it was sorta weird seeing all these little kids (who think they are SO cool and all) and realising that i was once like them...

friday. went to the second interview, which was really more of an observation day actually. found out that the job would pretty much be me standing on the streets of downtown, getting people to sign-up and donate to the humane society... not exactly ideal, but the pay is way, waaaay good... so i'm not sure if i should go for it or not... we'll see... have to decide by tommorrow night.

went out with ju and justin in the evening for jack astors. let me just say this: yum. after dinner, we hung out at chapters for a bit, then headed to a blockbuster to rent a movie. half-an-hour or so later (after entering, then exiting, then entering, then exiting...) and several little "disagreements" later, we decided not to see a movie. sheesh. have you noticed that, no matter who you're with these days, you can never decide on a movie to watch if it's not in theatres? if you haven't already decided on a movie you want to rent (or download) beforehand, there's no point b/c someone will either have seen it already, is not in the mood to watch the genre, doesn't like that certain actor, or just plain doesn't want to see it... GAH! it happened in queen's, and it still happens here... anyhow, after that, we just decided to head out to my place to hang out and talk. had a nice little chat with justin... we must continue it some other time... tuesday maybe? talk/hulk? and it was just so good to see the both of them again. i hadn't seen justin at all for the past year or so, and even though i see ju occasionally at church, we don't really get a chance to talk often. yeah, so things were good. it's always an entertaining time when the both of them are around (because they both squabble and argue so much)! like an old married couple...


today! went to centre island with queens people (vic, jess, marco, simon, xin, vic's little sister) for the dragonboat thing... my mission: to scope out cute chinese guys... was pretty unsuccessful last time i went (with grace), and today wasn't too different... but had a really good time hanging out and seeing them again. hadn't seen them (except simon) since april! yeah, so we went to celebrate jess' birthday (19th!) and enjoy the festivities. yeah, so i picked up a LOT of free samples and stuff (man, one of my favourite parts) and we just chilled out a lot. i made myself some newspaper pirate hats and stuff (but they didn't turn out too well). oh! so guess what, my life became EVEN MORE soap opera-y than normal... here's the latest news: ok, so vic and i are sisters, but i never really liked her when we were younger because she used to always steal my stuff and tell on me, etc. because of this, i have no qualms of being a homewrecker and having an affair with her own husband (my brother-in-law!) xin! he even gave me a ring even though he had no money to buy victoria a wedding ring! curiously enough, if you look at some photos, grace seems to have a ring that is almost identical to my own... am i being played? oh, and vic's trying to keep her marriage alive, despite the fact that she's had her own little "indiscretions" with a certain nick, for the sake of her eleven year old daughter teresa (er, not her little sister)... oh, what a tangled web we weave....

oh, scratch that last paragraph... i was at a "softball practice" and then a "softball bbq" in the evening. in the morning i went "shopping" somewhere in the "east end" and i also had lunch there as well... ;)

posted @ 7:40:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

hrm. don't think i'm going to get that job... but if i did, it would be pretty good... pays really well... ah, we'll see...

had a good day today... met suze, tina and simon for korean bbq.... yummy! but next time i vote that we try the sea urchin! heh. so, we pretty much just hung out and ganged (is that right? i always think that the past-tense of "gang" is something like "gung" but that just sounds stupid) up on simon b/c he thinks he's too good to talk to us online ;p suuuuure... you just want to get a good night's sleep, right? well, i'm sure not waiting until i'm bedridden until i start messaging people over icq and msn!

on a not-so-similar note: simon, you are SO talented! i swear! i love your duck painting - absolutely inspired! this is SO hanging up in my kingston apartment! that signature of yours is going to be worth milllions some day! and tina and i will be the ones reaping the benefits... mwahahaha!

sorry for the bad directions. i suck.

going to go back to broadacres tommorrow.... field trip ahoy!

p.s. my 'carl, the queen, and the ginseng tea caper' tv show is totally going to rock! it'll be on par with entertainment tonight!
p.p.s. whoa... i realise that i get really belligerent when i'm trying to explain computer stuff to my mom. must work on my patience.

posted @ 11:48:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


i.n.t.e.r.v.i.e.w.

posted @ 11:01:00 a.m.

[]

+ + +

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

my newest obsession: www.thespark.com... you have to check out the science projects... i'm rather partial to the "StinkyMeat" and "Date-My-Sister" projects! oooh! and do the purity test, i want to find out how depraved some of you are....

posted @ 10:23:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


yay! tiffany is happy! (the littlest things have a way of doing that!)
so, yeah, tiff is feeling smiley today (though a little sleepy...) and hopefully things will continue going well... for the record, i like phone calls.

ooooh! which reminds me, must call various people today so that we can meet up tommorrow.... FINALLY! i can't wait! this whole email-tag thing has gone on way too long... i just hope that everyone can make it! mmmmm... korean bbq, here i come!

yeah, so guess what i'm doing on thursday? i'm going on my cousin's field trip to some sort of aviary... it's a conservation park or something? i actually don't know very much about it, b/c adrienne's been relaying all the info to me (she even asked her teacher if i could go before she even told me about it!), all i know is that i'll be "chaperoning" (i.e. making sure the kids don't get lost or kidnapped when they have to go to the washroom), getting a free lunch (score!), and that i should wear long sleeved clothing so i don't get west nile or something... but it should be fun! haven't been on a field trip in ages (the physics observatory thing doesn't count...)!

got some mail today, and i already knew this before, but there are two words that i don't think i'll ever get tired of hearing together: "scholarship" and "renewed"... me like!

posted @ 1:46:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


AWAITING A PHONE CALL!!! :)

and messaging keith right now... so good to "talk" with him. can't wait to see him in late aug/early sept in kingston (i'm not sure when- it'll depend on whether or not i decide to visit people at mac or guelph). actually, can't wait to see everybody else as well... we're going to have mad parties when we all meet up again!! oh! but before everyone comes to me and grace's place, please register at william sonoma, ikea, restoration hardware, or pottery barn for our house-warming gift!

heh. planning "operation jealousy" right now... ;)

posted @ 12:58:00 a.m.

[]

+ + +

Monday, June 16, 2003

and tiffany has fallen to a new low... or become an even bigger suck up! :p

posted @ 7:00:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


ok, well, applied to a few more jobs today... we'll see where that goes later, won't we? in the meantime, i'm seriously thinking about that "opening apartment doors to let strange men in" job... i mean, it would be pretty cool working at a yorkville-area condo... swanky!

oh! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!!!! goodness, i haven't talked to you in ages. i wish you a very happy 19th (finally legal!) birthday... and i hope you don't have sars... speaking of which, i haven't had a chance to intentionally cough on anyone yet - no one's given me cut-eye! darn! was hoping to spark some mass hysteria on the ttc. ok, maybe not. i suppose that's because nobody (besides my grandparents) cares about it anymore.

hey, so my dad suggested that i go to cali to work in uncle teddy's restaurant. well, not really seriously b/c uncle teddy hasn't offered and my dad probably won't ask him, but it was inspired by dave's recent flight to edmonton (buy me something at the mall please!). but wouldn't that be so cool? working in california for the summer? (maybe i'd finally tan.... yeah right...) sigh. but i think i kinda need to make $$$ not spend it, and as grace pointed out, i'd be working just to pay off the plane tickets. put this paragraph in the wishful thinking section, i guess...

hey, so guess what? my parents, grandparents and some family friends are going to halifax next week for 8 days!!! i get the house ALL TO MYSELF!! mwahahaha!! oh crap, wait, my brother's still here, isn't he? oh well, i still get the house mostly to myself b/c jon works a lot. yay! yeah, so party at tiff's all next week!!! (honestly, what exactly would that party entail? us sitting around watching movies? sheesh.) i feel kinda bad ditching my parents during their week off b/c i really do want to spend more time with them, but seriously, what am i going to do without anybody remotely my age around in halifax? it would have been different if one of the chan kids could go, but such is not the case...

posted @ 3:48:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


okie... new format... let's see if i can get this working....

posted @ 1:22:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +

Sunday, June 15, 2003

ok, new plan: to find a guy, i will take my grandparents to waterloo, supply them with a cane that they don't need, and then have them drop the cane. some cute boy will come along, help me pick up the cane, our eyes will meet, i will bat my eyes at said boy, a pink cloud in the shape of a heart will come out towards the television screen (what television screen? well, i'm on tv of course!). then we will hug, cue romantic music, then we will fall in love, then we will have babies. the end.

this plan was supplied by my dear friend grace.


WHAT'S GOING ON? WHY WON'T YOU EMAIL ME?!?!? ARGH.

sorry, i'm being stupid.

second plan (also supplied by grace a.k.a. william): fake serious illness, got to hospital, marry rich doctor.

oh goodness. grace and i are soooo pathetic. we're talking on the phone and messaging each other at the same time right now. and sadly, we've done this back in kingston before... while we were in the same room... that's ok, we're going to go to a "guy's place" sometime... (the "landing STRIP" perhaps? gross old women? ew. ew. ew.)

posted @ 10:34:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DADDY!
not that you read this page... if you did, i think it would be kinda weird... like you'd find out stuff that i would really want you to know. i mean, i'm trying to be more open, honest, and candid with you and mom, but there are still some things i'd rather not divulge... i don't know, it's a chinese thing! you don't really talk with your parents about boys and stuff, you know?

yeah, so things this week have been really... let's say... rollercoaster-y emotionally... lots of ups and downs... but things are much better. i think that once i've had time to think about it, cry, talk to various people, write my feelings out on "paper"... i really become much more reasonable and calmer. things aren't as serious - not "life and death" or as final... i don't know. perhaps it's because i've vented it out through many different outlets, but... things fall into perspective afterwards.

you know what i think i should do? take more risks in life. i realised that i can get over things quite easily. when anything "devastating" (well, devastating for a teenage girl like me usually just means something about boys... shallow, i know...) happens to me, i really do get affected seriously at first. i mean, i get really, really upset and emotional. i'm like that for a day or two - maybe more, depending on the sitch - and then, i'm just... ok. you know? what always kills me is not the "bad news" but the indecision and unknown stuff that happens beforehand. i've spent many a sleepness night, just tossing and turning, and thinking. you know what i mean, if you're a girl. every moment is dissected into every little possibility, what-ifs play a large role, and moments are replayed over and over again in your head... when i find out something bad, that's just it. something bad. nothing more or less. nothing to really wonder about. it just happens, and you have to get over it. it's all so cut-and-dried. but when you wander into the hazier territory of "unknown"...

yeah, so i figure that i'll stop dwelling in my little dream-world and start going after the things that i want. or stop doing the things that i don't want or have or need to do. time for tiffany to be brave!

of course, this little brain wave could of happened at an earlier time and saved me much aggravation...

honestly, i AM going to miss you a lot. i wish i could have spoken up earlier. but, like my new attitude said, it's not the end by far, and i'm going to see you later!

posted @ 5:31:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +


hrm. here we go... i figured that i might as well join this whole "blog bandwagon" b/c it'll be alot easier than doing stuff on my geocities site.

posted @ 5:09:00 p.m.

[]

+ + +