name : tiffany
faith : christian.
nationality : cbc.
status : <3
living in : toronto.
school / major : UT / pharmacy
.: my stats, as of 11/05/06 :.
mood : tired.
likes : my friends. bunnies fronting as pillows. keeners.
dislikes : exams. lack of sleep. keeners.
wishlist : "connections".
current distractions : dexter, top model, heroes.
wondering : hmmm, is it too late for me re-learn study habits?
Thursday, July 31, 2003
pdl with ju was really good. it was completely unstructured, but it was good in that the topics we discussed were flexible. we just talked about anything that we thinking of - whether it was a phrase or section in the book, or if it was just something we encountered in life. i found it really helpful... it's going to be really hard to trust and surrender. i rely on myself too much, and not enough on God. maybe if i trust more, i'll be able to finally get past these issues that keep coming up... i hereby declare that my life is no longer going to be driven by: 1) fear, 2) anger and resentment, and 3) the need of approval.
btw i'm sorry... i'm not being fair to you...
anyway, was talking with ju and we were thinking of meeting up with the ol' romania team in the near future... tentatively august 16th (after my softball game). we're thinking of perhaps dinner and maybe hanging out and talking at someone's house? anyway, you guys let me know... i think justin's in, we just gotta figure out if everybody else can do it... jess, you free?
oh no, i just realised that our team's bbq is on the 16th as well, after the game... hrm, maybe we could all do that instead? that way we'd still get dinner, but we'd also have a place/house to chill and talk? would you guys mind? b/c i think they changed the bbq date for me (since i couldn't make the other date).
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i can't stand this. one minute i'm happy, the next i'm... not. grrr.
psh, whatever, i'm not letting this ruin the rest of the evening! doing pdl with ju! i'm excited!
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haha, spent the afternoon talking about our crazy chinese parents... "jenne, they've been drinking the mountain dew again!" "beautiful, beautiful... what's the situation?" it's so funny that our two families are the only ones that really understand each other... ahahahaa!!!! i'm looking forward to seeing duncan meet aunty irene... that's going to be SO hilarious! that's ok jenne, you can explain the intricacies of my family when i find a guy... only you, your brothers, and mei would understand... IT'S SO GOOD TO HAVE YOU HOME AGAIN! we MUST have another super sunday/monday/any of the week sometime soon! much further things to discuss!
i'm afraid these past few posts haven't been too interesting... well, TOUGH! it's my life and my blog, and i can write about whatever the heck i want!!! (though if you want a laugh, go read my entry from the 27th about the prawn candy...)
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jenne's over! yay!
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had "dinner" (aka. fried bananas with honey) at my thai kitchen with eebs, po, anika, and caitlin. came there late b/c i had already eaten dinner and i had to run some errands before i left. anyway, afterwards, i went over to anika's because the night was still young (it was only nine)... all those suckers with jobs (psh, what losers!) had to leave because they had work. so yeah, i hung out with anika for a few hours, we were trying to figure out if we wanted to go out somewhere or stay in and watch movies. we ended up just talking about lotsa different things, boys (and how incredibly stupid they are!), school, preferred alcoholic beverages, languages... it was really good b/c we've never been really close close like she is with the others, so it was a really nice chat and way to spend the evening - got to know each other a little bit better. i think i'm going to hang out with her next week, maybe thursday, since wednesday's caitlin's birthday.
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Wednesday, July 30, 2003
CONGRATS EBRU FOR MAKING IT INTO VET SCHOOL!!!!!! dr. cobra truly lives!!!! (was there ever any doubt?)
this means operation mooch (also named operation hobo) can finally commence... it's all coming together.... MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!
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i hope you will stop hurting soon and that, either way, everything turns out fine... i'm sorry that you guys have to go through this. love you.
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so kalam, brandon and ju just left... we rented tears of the sun (the bruce willis flick) and then talked for a little while. man, ju is the funniest girl ever! three minutes with her, and we're all cracking up! "WHATEVER!"
NO ONE WILL GO TO IKEA WITH ME TOMMORROW MORNING!
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Tuesday, July 29, 2003
looks like i'm crown and anchoring with erin... ;)
so had a nice lunch with jess... so good to see her again! i must say, she looked fabulous ;) and even though i hadn't seen her in a year, it was like no time had passed! (except for the looooong updates on our lives...) keep me updated on the stich, hun! which bus/train did you take? thanks for listening to me and promising to "defend my honour"!!! :p we definitely have to meet up with justin, ju, derrick, and everyone else... when are you guys free?
so i think i'm going out with kalam and brandon tonight...? just don't know what we'll be doing.
goodness, looking at the entries below, i am SUCH A SPAZ! hahaha...
oh man, all of a sudden i just heard ketan sing the "duck and cover" song in my head... now with actions!!!
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AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just realised that HE's become ME (circa 2000) and i've become _____! [insert curse word in capslock here, exclamation mark, exclamation mark. ]
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Monday, July 28, 2003
I FEEL LIKE I'M TAKING CRAZY PILLS!!!!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?
just when i think i'm either overcome with anger or just plain over him, my heart feels a little "pang". a small one, but one nonetheless. gah, you all must hate listening to me by now... "all tiffany talks about these days is 'boys boys boys!' " ;p
hey, so do you think it's possible to fall for a guy that you barely know, solely on the basis of reading his blog about his thoughts on faith and his 'walk'? honestly, he's just an acquaintance, but every time i read his page (which i stumbled upon by randomly clicking on my friend's page), it kinda... strikes me... hm, or maybe it just challenges me a bit more in my faith. i don't know... but hey, it's not like he's a complete stranger!
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oh, what a tangled web we weave...
i'm a terrible liar... i always falter - i think it's because wear my heart on my sleeve too much - i'd rather tell the truth instead.
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so i think a friend of mine was/is slightly mad at me b/c i said some things that he didn't want to hear. crap. i'm just trying to help and be realistic (i bet you hate that word now) even if you aren't... but i'm really sorry if i upset you. please forgive me!
uh oh, i think the vacuum's busted. double crap - this means i can't take it to kingston with me. oh my, the basement's slowly filling up with the fumes of burnt vacuum motor thingies... not the most appealing, appetite-whetting odour, i must say.
sniff sniff... i'm out of shrimp chips... erin, grace, and jeanie didn't leave any left, the little locusts!
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Sunday, July 27, 2003
various notes:
- post: i love jeanie. (it's her honourable mention!)
- "dag, yo."
- rohan! i already said that i was busy on the 9th anyway... pay attention!
- vengeance is erin's.
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hm, it would seem that rohan likes to be loved.... (check out his multiple comments below!)
so yeah, just got back from church and lunch... oh flip (trying to curb my obscenities... i figured it's not a christianly thing to do...), i suddenly realised that i'm hungry again... that's ok, i have SHRIMP CHIPS! mmmm! (i'm thinking all you non-chinese people are thinking that i'm really weird about now, but i swear, they're reallly good!) they don't taste anything like shrimp... omg, i gotta tell you guys, last year while i was away in kingston, my grandpa bought me some foodstuffs for me to eat (seeing as queens caf food tastes like... grossness...). he bought me some "prawn candy!" that's right! candy! not chips or anything! it was actual candy with a big prawn on the packaging... of course, he bought it at some chinese supermarket - the package was covered with incomprehensible (to me) japanese words - it all looked pretty sketchy. to make matters worse (or funnier), they put a sticker on it in english that explained the ingredients... here's the label, verbatim:
"ingredients: candy."
that was it! isn't that breaking some codes/rules somewhere? i have NO idea what was in it, besides... candy! (and i assume prawn, seeing as there was shrimp on the packaging) oh, and if you were all wondering, yes, due to overwhelming curiosity, i did taste the candy and... let's just say i tried to secretly deposit the rest of the bag's contents into marco's room afterward... it was sweet and didn't (thankfully) taste like shrimp, but it's just wasn't something to my liking.
doing pdl this past week has really challenged me in a good way... i'm trying to let go of a lot of anger, resentment, and fear that i've been nursing this past month... hm, i wonder how all that came about? ok, ok, i gotta let go, but every once in a while, i'll say something out of bitterness and it ain't healthy! so... praying for change... because i don't like that side of me, i've always been known as the "sweet" girl (or so my many yearbook message supposedly say), not the embittered, crotchety girl with "anger issues" that i've become... ok, i'm not really crotchety (i hope), but it's such a fun word to say! go on, say it!
anyways, if you guys could pray for me... i'm having a wee bit of difficulty letting go... mostly because whenever i'm ok again, something happens to upset me again. maybe i'm too sensitive or something, because it could be the smallest thing, but it'll still set me off on a rant or some other downward spiral. jeeze, i've gotta get a grip! no person should be able to affect my personality or how i feel about myself like this! darn boys!
ooooh! hey! this guy from ohio (i think?) sent me a comment about my blog! no idea how on earth he found this page or how he could possibly find this interesting seeing as he doesn't know me (because, let's face it, folks, i'm not an interesting person! all i do is write about my boring day...), but that was still kinda cool. anyway, erik, "hi!" and welcome to tiffanyville... enjoy your stay!
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Saturday, July 26, 2003
ok, so the beaches jazz festival plans have been scrapped due to mother nature's nefarious plans to thunderstorm the afternoon away... bah! one day i will succeed in controlling the weather (a la storm from x-men!), you'll see! so yeah, since i didn't want the day to go to waste, i'm having a few people over to my house just to hang out, talk, watch episodes of daria (or sb emails), rent movies, etc... pretty low-key, but should be fun. if anybody else is interested, you're welcome to come over... we're just hanging out at my house after church (around 2pm or so?).
yeah, so went to the second of two angels games today to cheer 'em on (and scout them out for when we play them.... ok, not really, since i have a short-term memory and i don't really care about that kind of stuff anyway...) i went with kalam, pui-ying (sp?), and mei... met up with felix, benita, and gable after they were done their game, and we went to the agape bbq afterwards. it was so weird... all seven of us were piled in uncle thomas' van, with felix driving, and we were talking about how we all hadn't been to agape in ages and then, all of a sudden, practically all of the agape kids were there in the van!
so yeah, the food was good at uncle arthur's... mmmmmmmmeat! veggie sticks, more meat, chinese noodles of course (it IS a chinese person's bbq, you know), watermelon, and yummy cheesecake! afterwards, we started watching "white men can't jump"... hadn't seen it in ages... so weird, looking at what was "cool" back then... the clothes, the mama jokes, the hair...
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remind me to curb my phone calls after 3 am...
SO TIRED!
well, looks like i'm just going to meet up with mei at the bbq instead. man, i'm reserving that cheesecake for just the two of us! mmmm...
hey, did you know that there's a ginger snaps 2 coming out in the fall? and they're coming out with ginger snaps 3 (a prequel)? the first ginger snaps movie was great! sure, the video box/case looks stupid, but it's an excellent, canadian horror flick. though, be warned, this movie has a morbid/macabre sense of humour... especially during the first scene, eh grace? don't say i didn't warn you... oh, mimi rogers is hilarious in this movie! so yeah... watch it if you like scary movies! (though it's not "scary", per se...)
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i can't believe we talked until almost four in the morning!
thanks for listening, justin.
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oh justin... looks like we're in the same boat...
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i saw jenne!!! I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE BACK HOME, SWEETIE! didn't think i was going to end up going to the airport, but at the last moment my dad says that he'll drive me, so off we went... and we just made it! we're looking for where to get off at the terminal when we see them crossing the street to go to the parking lot! so we quickly flagged them down, and uncle fred even told jenne to come home with us while they dropped off her luggage at their house! she came to our house before she even went home! i saw her before david did... hah! (although, i'm sorry that you're sick with sars or whatever.) can't wait until our talks, walks, and movie nights... WELCOME HOME, BIG SISTER!
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Friday, July 25, 2003
hey, but what if i like sea foam?
(it's coral that's the devil...)
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i'm back from my downtown excursion with erin! we just walked around the eaton centre and yonge street and shopped for a few hours. then we had dinner at ginger 2, this yummy vietnamese restaurant with pretty good prices on yonge. yum! i love viet spring rolls... better than chinese! so yeah, we shopped, joked around, discussed homestah runnow, and got to really catch up on each others lives... it was really good. we're planning on meeting up almost every week for the rest of the summer (to make up for the previous few months), anybody's who wants to come is welcome... i think we might hit up the beaches jazz festival this weekend, the taste of danforth, and some other stuff too. i think we're having a movie night next week... can anybody come up with a good theme? i think sometime we're going to have a "pop star" movie night just for (unintentional) laughs... (i.e. mandy moore movies, spice world, crossroads, glitter... something like that) any other good suggestions for themes? oh! and themes for parties too! let me know!
oh, and liz, we both were on time... ;)
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Thursday, July 24, 2003
since i couldn't get the pdl book to david zhang on time, i've been trying to post up the chapters up at quitesleepy-pdl.blogspot.com (shh, don't tell the publishers...) until i can give it to him (so he won't be two weeks/14 chapters behind...)
if you're interested in finding a "purpose driven life", i suggest you read the page to get an idea of what it's all about... i have a feeling that it's going to help me out a lot... hope you check it out too. warning: religious content inside!
ok, gotta go... must get ready so i won't (for once) be late! going downtown with erin today!
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Tuesday, July 22, 2003
you know, i realise that from reading these things, it seems like i'm constantly upset or angry... i'm really not! i only really write when i'm agitated b/c i find it cathartic... writing out my feelings really helps me work things out for myself... it just makes me look like a majorly moody, unbalanced girl or something since i'm always ranting about something or another. so this blog really isn't a realistic portrait of what i'm like most of the time, just a snapshot of how i'm feeling at that moment instead.
i just don't want you guys to worry ;)
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argh! it didn't post! must retype:
had a nice day today. spent the day with anika having an orlando bloom-fest (pretty much). saw pirates of the caribbean and then watched the extended dvd of lotr at her house... good company... good times... good food... good ice cream... what more could you ask for? it was a thoroughly enjoyable and undemanding day.
oh, and for those who live in my area: if you're planning on theatre-hopping at the queensway cinemas, make sure you call home before the first movie... we discovered that the pay phones are now located just outside the little ticket-taker's booth (meaning that you have to 'exit' the theatre first). this is why we didn't end up watching lxg... psh, like i'd pay to see that movie? it looks pretty terrible...
you should have spoken up sooner... or not at all.
because, you predicted correctly, i do resent you.
but i'm over it now, you're not worth all this.
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Monday, July 21, 2003
attention! attention! here is a list of the people that i love: jess cheung...and no one else!
want to know how to get on this list as well? well, then just sign my new guestbook! it's as easy as that! she was the first and only person to sign it as of right now, hence the love. *muah*
as to when we're going to meet up, what's your schedule? i'm thinking that mine's a lot more open than yours is (seeing as i'm still not working...), so just icq me or give me a call sometime. um, i know we don't have softball this week (camp's this coming weekend), so i should be free if you wanted to meet up? oh! and i'm sure ju and the others would love to get together. anyway, let me know what's a-happening, ok?
oh, and for those of you who haven't read the last post, please do so.
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ugh. must discipline myself. stayed up 'til around 5am or so, finishing up the fifth harry potter book. so very tired. but the book was good... harry's definitely a teenager now, he's so moody! oh! i hate that umbridge woman! and i can't believe that _________ is gone! very upset about that.
jon's updated his turkey page... check it out and please pray for my brother.
oh, so just decided to check out my friend marco's page and found this "teaser" there:
a) We are two Queens University students
b) We are asking for your problems
c) We are offering 10% of the money we win
d) We can win up to $15 000 (that means up to $1 500
cold hard cash in your pocket)
I hope that caught your interest. You can find out more at
yeah, so please check out my friends' page if you get the chance! they'd really appreciate it, and if you decide to help them out, don't forget to use me as your referral! ;)
p.s. keith, marco: really loved the "about" section... :) hey, anytime you need a pr person...
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just chatted a bit with tina... she's going to u of t for pharmacy... i'm going to miss you!!!!!!!! please some visit often!
oh, and seeing as i'm not that pathetic, i'm not going to sign my own guestbook, but i'd just like to point up that little linky thingy at the left-hand margin that says 'leave a comment'... it's not so much a request as a COMMAND. ok, not really, but i'd really like you to sign it so as to give the illusion that i have friends... you know... all about keeping up appearances... so yeah, even if you signed the one from my old page, sign this one b/c it's new and doesn't have a billion other "demanding" questions (like "how much do you loooove me"), but feel free to wax on poetically with words of exhultation and praise anyway, if you are so inclined. so please please please?
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Sunday, July 20, 2003 purpose driven life - day one
for everything, absolutely everything,
above and below, visible and invisible,...
everything got started in him and
finds its purpose in him.
~ colossians 1:16 (msg)
it's not about me.
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ow. gotta stop trying to barehand the ball when it comes towards me... it's rubbing off onto dan as well! i guess i keep thinking i can pull a geena davis from 'a league of our own'... we won today, but offensively weren't doing that well... too many pop-ups. but still, 10-4 or something like that. we had guest appearances by justin and ed! oh, and saw that will guy today too...
the sermon was good today... must remember to utilise my talents instead of squandering them... i just have to figure out what my talents are! i have no idea, there's nothing that i really "shine" at that i know of.
was acting slightly weird today... was pissy to david... sorry! but yeah, i think he was acting a little weird/aloof today as well... but then again, i could just be overreacting or making things up again, i have a tendency to do that it seems...
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saw 'about a boy' with ju just now... good movie. hugh grant's pretty cute for an "old" guy! and had a nice time chatting with ju... must spend more time with her this summer.
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Saturday, July 19, 2003
watching a chick flick of some sort with ju tonight... should be good. haven't spent that much quality time with her lately.
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went for dim sum with my family and uncle fred and aunty irene... i think kalam was working and david was too busy playing war to come... sigh. once again i must praise matt for not being a gamer... but lunch was yummy today and costco afterwards was, as always, good.
got the latest harry potter book from costco for $22.99! yay, finally! psh, and chapters/indigo/coles was selling it for 20% off from $43... yeah right! thanks to felix for letting me know about this deal! going to be busy reading tonight... unless somebody wants to do something this evening?
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have just been reading allison's page again and there were a few things she had posted up that describes how i felt/feel...
> you'll know that you miss someone very much when every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick "hello" from that person can bring the broken pieces back...
> a sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
> you make me smile for no reason whatsoever, you make me laugh at the unfunniest things, but most of all, you make me love you when I shouldn't be loving you.
> who cares? time for me to move on and find that hot australian guitar player!
ok, that last one i came up with on my own...
THE HILL
by: Rupert Brooke (1887-1915)
BREATHLESS, we flung us on the windy hill,
Laughed in the sun, and kissed the lovely grass.
You said "Through glory and ecstasy we pass;
Wind, sun, and earth remain, and birds sing still,
When we are old, are old...." "And when we die
All's over that is ours; and life burns on
Through other lovers, other lips" said I,
"Heart of my heart, our heaven is now, is won!"
We are Earth's best, that learnt her lesson here.
Life is our cry. We have kept the faith!" we said;
"We shall go down with unreluctant tread
Rose-crowned into the darkness!".... Proud we were,
And laughed, that had such brave true things to say.
-- And then you suddenly cried, and turned away.
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ketan said hi to me today (technically friday night), so in his honour, i'm posting up two links for you guys to check out that he introduced me to. it's one of those personality tests, and i find this one to be surprisingly accurate, detailed, and informative... ok, to take the test, go to the jung typology test. once you have your results (what personality type you are), match it with its detailed description on this page... it's quite interesting... so what type are you? i'm an esfj.
oh, and a "yay" to liz for helping me with the entry spacing issue... it was the div thing... many thanks!
and thanx to brandon for driving me home even though he was half-awake... (safe, non?)
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i found nemo!
yeah, so have been busy burning jon's cds (while he's away in turkey, of course) and have thus been listening to much, much music. here are my recommended songs/artists:
> destiny, zero 7
> this love, craig armstrong
> angel, massive attack
> in the waiting line, zero 7
> fifth avenue & avenida, afterlife
> distractions, zero 7
> protection, massive attack
> deeper - into places, afterlife
> teardrop, massive attack
> introduction to romeo, craig armstrong
> la femme d'argent, air
spent the evening with brandon... we went to square one for a bit - so he could buy a jersey (out of spite for the marks and sym! heh.) and so i could get the difference from a tank that i bought (to match my purple fashion crimes purse!) that recently went on redline... $3.45 back, baby! and since we had some time to kill before the movie started at ten, we just hung around and talked about different things. it was nice spending time with him (even though his gaze kept wandering... to his cousin! ahahaha! just j/k... he's not a big perv). so yeah, we saw finding nemo! i really liked it! was not disappointed by all the "hype" since everybody keeps telling me to go see it. loved dory and her whale dialects! must learn to speak it! yeah, so it was really good (though the beginning was so sad!) and i liked it, though i'm not sure if brandon did or not... he was too busy napping... apparently i have a comfy shoulder... but it was all good and now i feel happy, so yay! the littlest things can make me so happy!
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Thursday, July 17, 2003
how do you like this new layout?
what the heck is with all this space under here?
feedback: so i'm told (by brandon) that the green doesn't suit my page... that i should stick to blue... well, i kinda agree - i AM a blue kinda gal - but too bad! i'm sticking with this layout for a while! i don't know, the colour may not necessarily suit me, but i still like how it looks... now if only i could decipher this html code so i can get rid of all that extra space after the most recent post.... (like that stuff down below...)
hrm. so yeah, have been burning jon's cds onto my comp today... psh, buy things? spend money? not me!
and have been watching many, many episodes of daria... such a good show... SO funny! my favourite characters are the psychotic ms. li (gotta love the way she reverently says "lawndale high"), kevin and brittany (so, so stupid), and my all-time faves, the fashion club... every time i hear sandi's voice, it cracks me up... "tiffany dear, eyelid-consuming monsters simply do not exist. only an extremely gullible loser would believe such a laughable tale." oh, and is it just me, or does sara ford pop into your mind whenever you see quinn?
anyway, if you haven't read yesterday's post, check it out. i really like it.
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Wednesday, July 16, 2003
just read this off of somebody's aa page... a group of professionials asked some kids, aged 4 to 8 years, "what does love mean?" it's amazing how profound and wise some kids can be... their answers:
> love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day. ~ mary, age 6
> love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well. ~ tommy, age 6
> love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday. ~ noelle, age 7
> love is what makes you smile even when you're tired. ~ terri, age 4
> if you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend whom you hate. ~ nikka, age 6
> love is what's in the room with you at christmas if you stop opening presents and listen. ~ bobby, age 5
> you really shouldn't say "i love you" unless you mean it. but if you do mean it, you should say it a lot. people forget. ~ jessica, age 8
> love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip of it before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is ok. ~ danny, age 7
> when somebody loves you, the way they say your name is different. you know that your name is safe in their mouth. ~ billy, age 4 so now i pose this to you: is mine safe in yours?
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that's it. no more shopping for me! well... atleast until the end of this week... just came back from square one with felix and matt today. i'm probably not going to see matt again before he leaves on friday, so... have a good flight!
picked up some copies of pdl today for the two davids... can't wait until we start on sunday... i think it's something i really need.
triangle. must stick to the triangle. it's the only way it'll work out for me.
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actually, starting to feel a little bit sad. no, maybe not sad, but wistful. it's because i'm starting to dwell. ok, really going to bed now. g'night.
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was that a final goodbye? i don't understand what that was all supposed to mean. must seek clarification. but first, the sandman... goin' to bed now... sweet dreams...
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Tuesday, July 15, 2003
have strangely not been sad today. but found myself thinking alot about him during the long ride home.
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did you know that it takes a very, very long time to bus to pac mall from my house? like two hours or something ridiculous like that! yeah, so spent the day with matt again, this time at pac mall and market village. i think it was a bit of a let down for him, b/c there really weren't that many stores that we were interested in going in, but i think it was still ok b/c he still managed to pick up a few things. so yeah, we mostly walked around, up and down the "streets" talking. i'm totally glad that he's a nice, amicable person or else these past two days would have been majorly awkward. i think he had a good time? anyway, i now have a crick in my neck b/c i was lugging around my oac yearbook and some pics in my bag to show him. he thinks that matt foster is the one who's changed the most dramatically, and i do see his point... heh, miss hearing his laugh! anyway, am now back home, eating original pringles b/c i'm too lazy to fix myself a proper dinner. um, that was my day.
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jess, how can i be sad when i have a friend like you? :)
why is it that even though i'm getting a good 8 or 9 hours sleep (and i'm pretty much recovered from being sick), that i still wake up exhausted? bah.
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Monday, July 14, 2003
had a completely busy, but good, day. met up with matt wong (he still looks pretty much the same... but older? i don't know, just slightly different) today with grace to show him around downtown and take him shopping. did so much walking!
abbreviated itinerary:
eaton centre, then up yonge to bloor, down bloor to bay, took ttc from bay to osgoode, down queen st until beverley, up bev to dundas, walked around the ago, walked down dundas to spadina, down spadina (and in the two chinese malls) back to queen st, down john st to paramount, sat and talked at paramount for quite a while, then walked down to king st, walked down king all the way to university, up university to dundas again, then east on dundas back to eaton centre. fin.
i was worried that things would be awkward since i hadn't seen him in four years or so, and we hadn't been that close friends, but things turned out pretty well. he's a really nice guy, we probably could have become pretty good friends if he had stayed in toronto, i think. anyhow, we bonded over the screwed-upness of relationships... :) sigh. but yeah, good day in that i spent it with friends, bought a tank to go with my purple fashion crimes purse, and it took my mind off the boy. going to get together with matt and felix tommorrow, i believe.
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he said i was supposed to be that girl...
why does my heart feel so bad?
b/c this is my heart again: ~ ' ` . * " (in little itty bitty pieces) < % , - ^ _
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Sunday, July 13, 2003
sigh. you didn't come.
still very tired. i'm so not a morning person - well, i'm not when i haven't had a good rest due to stomach pains and etc... oh well. the announcement went well, i think. though i didn't really do that eye contact thing b/c i think i put my contacts in funny so things were kinda blurry there for a while... hrm. jon should have reached istanbul by now.
um. added new link: jon's blog... if you're interested, he should be putting up updates and prayer requests there. plus he has some other unrelated stuff there too. check it out if you want. also have fixed vicky's link too since i forgot to add an 's' last time... if anyone else wants to be added, just say so.
crumbling....
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won again today... 20-4... go team. yah, i really sucked today. though i think that the infield really did contribute to my suckiness - this new park, goldhawk (?) made other people play slightly badly too. (that's my story and i'm sticking to it!)
tired. so very tired. have to get up and prepare a short announcement for jon's trip tommorrow... wish me luck!
please be safe, jon.
gah. had kbbq. again. i've never had so much kbbq in my life... do you realise that this is the fourth consecutive week that i've had it? grossness! and the only reason why i'm there is b/c if i don't go, i don't get a ride back home from scarberia.
please be there tommorrow... i need to see you.
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Saturday, July 12, 2003
damn. don't want to play softball anymore.
posted @ 4:56:00 p.m.
the "gospel" according to hello kitty psychological tests:
"you are OK at initiating relationships. you might be scared to make the first step sometimes even when you really want to because you are usually passive. but others always pamper you, so even if you don't do anything you might still be able to attract others. if you want a rich husband, it's not just a dream. but you should watch out because others might get jealous of you." you saw it here, folks, i'm being encouraged to be a trophy wife!
just sent jon off to new york/turkey half-an-hour ago... bon voyage! praying for you every step of the way! i just read something that jon wrote that made me go "awwww!" honestly, you learn something new about somebody every day... jonathan, you truly are an inspiration to me. thank you.
goodness, i'm tired. went to sleep at 4:30am last night trying to finish off jon's care package... finally done , but now i'm dead tired and my stomach's still acting up. slightly better than the day before, but i still feel pretty bad. booo! i'm going to die at our softball game tonight...
oh! was mighty pissed yesterday, but gable, alan, and especially mei helped make me feel better when they dropped by last night. thanks so much, hon! must remember to chant my new mantra... and to put my plans in action... ;)
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Friday, July 11, 2003
i apologise for my vulgarity a few posts back... was extremely agitated that day. hrm. i think i gotta go tell somebody off in the near future... i need my peace of mind! but in the meantime, things are going well... the littlest things bring me joy as well ;) , and i just want to say hi to my dear friend jess... "HI!" miss you too, hon, and hope that we can meet up sometime soon. i'm free whenever, just give me a call!
prayer request: that jon will have a safe flight and trip to (and from) turkey. and that God will do wonderful things through him.
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Thursday, July 10, 2003
went shopping with brandon today (not a briefs man, eh?) and then saw pirates of the caribbean with him. decent movie. well actually, if johnny depp hadn't been in it, it would have been a terrible movie, but since his character was the best part in the entire thing, so i found it rather enjoyable. (next best, orlando bloom... yum.) a raft of sea turtles... haha... so stupid, but it made me laugh. promised anika that i was going to see it with her (b/c of orlando bloom), so i guess i'll be watching it again.
so generasians with kristin kruek, eh? i bet a lot of guys will be signing up this year... keith? marco?
whoa. jon's going in two days...
hey, so matt wong's coming to visit from texas... gonna meet up with him sometime next week? anybody else want to come?
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Wednesday, July 09, 2003
p.s. i love brandon harrison. he is the greatest man on earth.
so ladies, if you want to be set up with this extremely eligible bachelor, let me know and i'll see what i can do... ;)
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one fucking month.
well, atleast brandon knows how i feel. thanx for letting me rant... >_<
WHAT THE BLOODY HECK!
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Tuesday, July 08, 2003
hey, who actually reads this thing anyway? if you read this, can you tell me? i'm just curious.
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omg. if you tell me that you're engaged, i am going to feel SO. VERY. OLD. honestly, too much time has passed...
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the past few days:
friday - started to feel a little bit sick... sore throat and all... but spent the day with kalam, felix, and kalam's friend pui ying (sp?) downtown and then to markham. went to cornerstone where the program was a photo scavenger hunt and got to see felix have a "seizure" to kris kross' 'jump' (hello future blackmail material!). pure jokes. "word to your mother!" and hammer's "too legit to quit!" afterwards, went to commerce for kbbq (again! i'm going to weigh a thousand pounds by the time september rolls around!)... ed managed to get me home from there to my house in 18 minutes! nevermind that he was at one time going 150 kph...
saturday - felt really, really crappy but "was a soldier" (you would have been proud, bubba) and played softball today. after the game (which we won), jess and marco picked me and grace up from the diamond at warden and mcnicoll so we could all go to vic's birthday party located at yonge and finch. it took us around two bloody hours! jess kept saying that she didn't think we were going in the right direction, but grace kept saying "no, trust me, it's still much further..." we went so far east that we hit kingston!!! kingston road, that is... i didn't even know there was such a thing, and it's a large road too! you know you've gone too far when you see all these cars towing boats... and when kennedy road just STOPS... so yeah, i found a map and we managed to find our way back to the party... but the stupid street festival made us detour a billion times! argh. finally got there in one piece (though the cake was kinda melted and smushed) and had a grand time eating, talking, and playing tennis (which i really shouldn't have been doing seeing as i was feeling SO crappy and exhausted...). it was really good seeing jess, vic, marco, and xin again... hope you had a happy 19th birthday sweetie! hope all of your daniel wu-related dreams come true! well... all in all, a tiring but good day.
sunday - had another game after church. funny story: this game's diamond was just across the street from saturday's diamond (the warden area), and when sym gave us westenders a ride to finch station, it only took him TWENTY MINUTES to get there when the day before it had taken us TWO HOURS! wth! and that included a small detour to give mike a ride home in the opposite direction!!! sigh. so yeah, we won the game again by 26-3, i believe, and even though i was feeling a bit better from saturday, i think the weather still made me feel even worse. i cannot deal with hot weather. but kalam was nice enough to buy me a slushie from the ice cream man without me even asking him! so nice of him. after coming home, spent the rest of the night trying to rest.
monday - better, but stuffy nosed. did nothing during the day really, but went to dinner with david zhang and his parents. going to mcgill next year, so i hope he comes and visits me on his way to montreal. kalam came over for bible study with jon after dinner, gave me a rose from his garden as a get well present. honestly, i don't give that boy enough credit. he really can be a nice guy. AND he's the second guy to ever give me a flower. that raises his esteem instantly b/c nobody ever gives me any flowers! the first was alan, and that doesn't even really count b/c he had a whole bunch of carnations and he was just offering them to people (and yet i'll still remember him for it, b/c it was a nice gesture nonetheless). so let this be a lesson for all you guys out there, you really want to impress me and win me over? give me flowers! you don't even have to buy them! just pick them from someplace! hell, even dandelions!
tuesday - i am now officially named "sneezy". resting some more today... nothing planned... oooh! except that i have a phone date with brandon tonight! much to catch up on!
one month, tommorrow.
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Friday, July 04, 2003
STAY ON YOUR SIDE OF THE BED!!!!!!!! ahahahaha!
bon voyage to those of you going on trips today
(especially you, simon! but what's this i hear about you living with david??? he's going to corrupt you!)
my goodness, i'm very melodramatic below, aren't i?
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saw terminator 3 with ed and kalam yesterday. i thought it was a good movie - it was surprisingly funny! "give me your clothes... now!" heh heh. so yeah, i recommend it. although maybe you shouldn't take my word for it, seeing as how i actually thought the hulk was enjoyable and everybody else thought it was crap. (i still stand by my convictions! i never saw the cartoon or read the comic, so i don't know if they screwed up the plot or not) anyway, had a good time last night with them (they agreed that the movie was good), and went to dennys after the movie (mmmmm... hash browns...). going to see them again today, i think. and felix and this other girl???? i don't know.
oh, just did a few quizzes:
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy places. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend.
What Color Eyes Should You Have? brought to you by Quizilla warms the cockles of your heart, doesn't it? i like the browns eyes result even better!
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Thursday, July 03, 2003
tiffany is doing well :)
p.s. hi suzana!
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Wednesday, July 02, 2003
i love you erin.
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so today turned out to be ok... spent most of the day at ebru's (happy birthday, dr. cobra! and happy confederation day!). got to see the whole gang again (even caitlin was back from england!) and just spend time talking with various people and eating way too much junk food... it was really good. don't spend enough time with them, trying to remedy that... going to see pirates of the carribean and shop at heartland with anika (mmm... orlando bloom...), seeing finding nemo with jeanie, bend it like beckham with eebs... all in due time...
yeah, so left at about 9:30-ish b/c karen was kind enough to give me a ride back home, and as i was home i ended up wishing that a certain someone had called me up to ask if i wanted to see the fireworks with him. but he didn't. (why would he?) so i ended up watching some seinfeld and temptation island (australian version!!), and just generally hanging around.
rant the second gawd. i hate this. it's not like i'm pining away or anything, but this is driving me nuts. what am i supposed to do when the person i want to talk to the most is the one person i swore i wouldn't call? with the way things are, i'm not even sure if i'm supposed to call, email back, or message you, or if i'm just supposed to wait... like i said before, it's going to be a long time before i see you again. well, maybe two weeks isn't really a long time, but to me, it's going to be agony... just waiting... i was never very good with being patient. but yeah, i don't know what to do. i just want to pick up the phone and talk to you, but i'm not going to. i'm not going to initiate anything even if i go insane in the process. you haven't even told me what you really, really want either. you give me options, which i'm glad b/c you're thinking of me, but that's not what i need. there are no alternate options for how you feel or what you want. so what will it be? sigh. what do you need and what do you want? is there a difference? whatever you decide, i'll be ok with, as long as you don't try to shut me out of your life... i deserve better than that. sigh. i need to see you. actually, it'd probably be better to see you face-to-face than talk over the phone b/c i have a feeling that i'd just end up crying on the phone (leading to major discomfort on your behalf), whereas in person, i'd keep my composure a lot better. it's not like this is the end of the world or anything, i suppose i just have a flair for the dramatic, but honestly... it's not so much as the loss of the relationship as it is the friendship... the thought of a summer without you seems so stale and unbearable. it hurts.
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Tuesday, July 01, 2003
this was my heart: <3
this is my heart now: ~ ' ` . * " (in little itty bitty pieces) < % , - ^ _
