name : tiffany
faith : christian.
nationality : cbc.
status : <3
living in : toronto.
school / major : UT / pharmacy
.: my stats, as of 11/05/06 :.
mood : tired.
likes : my friends. bunnies fronting as pillows. keeners.
dislikes : exams. lack of sleep. keeners.
wishlist : "connections".
current distractions : dexter, top model, heroes.
wondering : hmmm, is it too late for me re-learn study habits?
Monday, November 10, 2003 hungry, i come to you for i know you satisfy
i am empty but i know your love does not run dry
So i wait for you, so i wait for you
i've fallen on my knees, offering all my needs
Jesus, you're all this heart is living for
broken i run to you for your arms are open wide
i am weary but i know your touch restores my life
So i wait for you, so i wait for you
i am weak, but you give me strength... is there anything You can't do?
never let me doubt You, or think that i know better than You...
and most importantly... never let me go...
and on a completely different tangent:
dude. do you realise that i'm going to leave my teens behind in one week exactly? i'm not ready yet! i still have so much more living to do!!! so many responsibilities left unshirked!
also: rohan! i'm glad to see that you're still a part of the living! :D
had a really nice day today... had to wake up early this morning b/c i was meet phoebe for sunday school today... was tired b/c went to sleep late the night before. when xin, suz, and i were finished watching the matrixrevolutions, it was past one. they ended up coming over to my place to order a pizza, chat, and introduce xin to the world of homestar (erin, i hope you realise that this obsession is ALL your doing... :p hahaha, it probably would've happened anyway, i never realised how widespread that site is!). anyway, so while they were over, i continued touching up the stencils on my wall (they look pretty good, actually!) and continued to paint until the random hour of four in the morning. (was also talking with danny at around 3:30am or something). so yeah, have to learn not to start projects at insane hours in the morning!
my matrix 3 review:
it was ok. entertaining, but not that good. even worse than the 2nd movie (and i didn't even really like the 2nd one either... too much nonsensical, philosophical junk). but yeah, this one was pure action. and there were SO MANY cheesy and laughable parts (that weren't supposed to be!) and man, keanu reeve's acting comes and goes... some parts... sooo bad... and the movie seemed really short, too.
anyway, back to my day... ok, so went to sunday school - it was really good. it's nice to have such a wide range of ages in the group... get lots of the wise insight of the more elderly people... very interesting. anyway, i'm really excited about this week, b/c we're starting to fill out our personal gifts inventory questionnaire... i'm really hoping that this will clarify and maybe bring purpose or focus to my life?
so, i'm actually going to your help... i'm not trying to fish for compliments, but i honestly need to know what you find my strengths to be. honestly. not ones that i think i have or ones i want to have, but the gifts i actually possess. i'm hoping that i'll really put them to use, once i figure out what they are. i'm kinda excited, but a little nervous... i really feel God calling me to do something for the community... not just utilizing for myself and friends... because, really, how can you call yourself gifted in one thing if it's just towards your friends? anyone can be nice to the people they like, but it takes that extra... grace? for someone to utilize their gifts for strangers, or even people they dislike.
so have been getting to know phoebe better these days, which is really cool, b/c she's really nice person, lives really close, and someone who could keep me accountable spiritually, i think. hopefully i'll join her monday evening bible studies? oh! and she's going to teach me to play the guitar!!! yay!
was talking with benita today... miss her lots! haven't spoken to her in ages... i feel bad that we've drifted apart... i mean, i didn't even know about some of the stuff that's been happening in her life, much less the way she feels about them... so it appears we're in the same-ish boat now.... that's ok... we're buffy and tuffy! stupid-boy slayers extraordinaire! making the world a better place, one less boy at a time... mwahahahaha! <3 we musn't forget the steps!! they're crucial!
and yet still... why do i remain stagnant? ...
so went to my cell group potluck dinner today. truth be told, i actually didn't want to go, b/c i thought it would be awkward since i've missed all the cell group meetings so far (since i haven't been to fellowship in a month) and thus didn't really know anyone. but i keep forgetting that God is good and that he'll take care of me... i mean, to you, this may not seem like a big thing, but for me... it's b/c i'm such a people-person, that other people's opinions of me matter so much (thought they really shouldn't). it can even get to the point where i'll skip something b/c i dont' think that people will like me... man, these insecurities! but i've been slowly praying and working on them... slowly.... i realised that all these fears are absolute garbage, and the only thing they're doing is holding me back. (though easier said than done).
but anyway, i had to go, b/c i told alice i was going to (couldn't think of a good excuse not to go, and knew that i shouldn't miss it anyhow) but honestly, everyone was so friendly, and it was just really nice and low-key. just a buncha people chatting, eating, and watching the food network! hahaha... but yeah, met some really nice people! plus, i am SO taking jon wong on for a euchre tournament... guys against girls... the stake: bragging rights! (though us girls already won them since we won the couch game.... soooo long, but so much fun! your head starts to hurt after awhile... hahaha, i'm such flake... "who's tiffany? oh wait! i am!")
{surveys what she wrote} dude... i write too much.
posted @ 12:28:00 a.m.
