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Monday, August 04, 2003

thanks marco... :) can't wait to see you again on the 15th! and come september, i WILL be expecting the B&J minus the chocolate ex-lax...

had a black sunday afternoon yesterday... i hate how i get so overwhelmed with my emotions so easily.... had a complete and utter breakdown on the phone with brandon; my family kept asking me what was wrong... sigh. i just couldn't handle things, only two people helped me lapse briefly into sanity: brandon and jenne, and it's not like i can be around them 24-7. i was literally going nuts, reduced to tears, and feeling that all my previous efforts were all for naught. ugh. what a sucky, sucky day it started out to be. SUCKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[i feel so ridiculous writing this stuff out, but write it out i have to, even at the risk of you rethinking your friendship with me (on account of my patheticness and basketcase-ness). i hate the idea of you guys feeling sorry or exasperated with me, but i just gotta honestly write things out. thanks for puttin' up with me!]

and strangely enough, once i got to the softball diamond for our exhibition game, i felt immediately better. maybe it was kalam's idiotic attempts to cheer me up, hasib at our game to cheer grace and me on, or driving past a car on the highway that was pulled over by a cop and then suddenly realising that it was my best friend's (ok, i wasn't really happy about this b/c i'm not a sadistic friend, but it DID make me laugh). or maybe my mind was just taken off of things because my friends are wonderful and i love spending time with them. regardless, my evening was exponentially better than my afternoon. the game was good (and finally in the west-siiiide!) and we won 19-15. SO close. we were the away team and were up by ten, but in the last inning when they were up to bat, we played some sloppy defense and they managed to get six runs! (yes, hasib, it IS called a run in softball as well...) that's ok, it's only an exhibition... after the game, we headed off to the denny's on hurontario where we had some good eats, i got "tattooed" with a snake and heinz ketchup bottle on my arm, and i drew helpful labels all over jason (don't worry jay, you're still my first, even if you got injured). when i got home at 12, i did lose some of my newfound cheeriness, but just decided to go to read a little, look at some pics, and then go to sleep early.

today... meh. i don't know how i feel. not indifferent. not happy. not sad. but i AM looking forward to dress shopping with jenne today at square one. it'll be good to get outta the house, even if it Is to shop... (remember when i vowed never to shop again? yeah, i lied.)

posted @ 12:28:00 p.m.

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